Hi everyone!
Back from 4 days work as a camera operator in Southport. It was AMAZING! Hard work but I'm so proud. For the first time ever, I:
Changed trains on my own
Walked from an unfamiliar station to an unfamiliar hotel
Got myself to work on the first day to meet the rest of the crew.
I admit, I shed a tear when a closing video, comprising various bits of footage from the conference was on screen, and I saw some of my work.
But then when I got back into uni this afternoon I had to see my course leader.
I've failed me referral brief, but should be able to re-do it next year as I put in extenuating circumstances due to chicken pox.
I've also failed my two films from this semester, but didn't put a claim in because I thought that if I could go into uni on deadline day it wouldn't be accepted.
My tutor is going before the panel to try and get them to accept one claim for both modules. Basically, this means I can only graduate with a Diploma in Higher Education this year. If I want my full degree, I have to go back next year and re-do the 2 modules with the current 2nd year students.
I feel numb. I can't believe it. My friend R, who is a technician in my course's department, has been amazing, helping me make sense of it all. My parents have been the same. I'm going out shopping tomorrow with R's partner Y and my friend H for a girly day. I think I need it!
How can I go from being on top of the world to feeling like my confidence has been smashed to bits with a sledgehammer???