DD2 is 6 months and I feel like I am about to have a breakdown. She wakes every hour, if we're lucky, and generally has to be fed back to sleep. I also find it really hard to get back to sleep so after each wake up I'm awake for at least half an hour but often don't get back to sleep before she's up again.
I feel sick with tiredness, I'm delirious. I spend my days crying, snapping at my 3 year old, and thinking about suicide. I'm under the perinatal mental health team but all that seems to mean is that I've been offered a single psychiatrist appointment in Feb and put on the waiting list for a single psychologist appointment god knows when.
I do not know what to do. I cannot function like this. DH does everything he can, but I wake when DD cries anyway so even if he soothes her back to sleep without feeding, I've woken and can't then get back to sleep anyway.
We have tried everything, and nothing makes any difference. If one more person says to me "it will get better" I may actually explode. I know it will get better, of course it will! But I genuinely worry I will not make it to that point without hurling myself off a bridge first. I know there's no magic baby sleep trick but I just don't understand how I can possibly go on like this. I'm at a complete crisis but because it's caused by baby sleep, everyone just sort of tilts their head, says "oh that must be hard" and moves on.
Please help. I will try literally anything.