Posting in chat so it will disappear, not a troll and very happy for MNHQ to check out my posting history. Of course if they say it's got to be moved to the sex topic I understand but I would prefer to talk about this knowing it won't exist once it expires.
As per title - I feel slightly weird, slightly embarrassed and slightly flawed because anal penetration is my biggest turn on 
I want it so much before I orgasm and then afterwards I feel ashamed. I have a perfectly normal vagina, and orgasm well there, but when really turned on I sink to this primal level where I crave anal. The physical feelings I get are - insanely good. Wtf is wrong with me? It's like the orgasms I have there give me pleasure in my whole body, and vaginal orgasms are very intense and great but don't reach my whole body.
I'm not neurotypical and I wonder if maybe there is a neurological quirk with my pelvic nerve?
Long term, I can't embrace anal sex either, can I? It's not good to have regularly from a stretching point of view?
What should I do? Could a sex therapist help somehow?