Sorry for all those having a hard time.
Went for afternoon tea today. Friend organised it as two tables of two but they put the tables touching each other so we were a group of four. I'd like to say I felt guilty about breaking the rules, but I didn't particularly. It was really nice and almost didn't notice the lack of alcohol. Outings atm are cheap because I now generally drive and with no alcohol meals out are so much cheaper.
In other news I have rashly booked flights to Lisbon for DH and I whilst DS is on his 2 week wilderness trip with school next May. This is of course assuming the trip will be on and we will be allowed to travel. But flights are Easyjet and £100 so we can move them forward if that's not the case, but oh my goodness having something to look forward to - other than 2020 rebooking leftovers - feels really good. I had a trip booked to Lisbon at the end of August but my friend backed out and I decided at the boarding gate that I didn't want to go alone, so didn't.