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Drugs again. Please someone tell me I'm doing the right thing.

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MercurySummer · 05/07/2010 21:07

First of all, sorry if this is a bit rambly and not as intelligently written as most MN posts... I wasn't going to post at all as most of his stupid family are probably on here, but then I thought, f@*k it.
Dp and I together over 6 years, have a DS (4) and a DD (12 weeks). He has what you might call an 'addictive personality' and has had a previous problem with cocaine. we broke up over it when DS was small (I was informed of his problem by a 'friend'). Things haven't been right between us for a while, and the old warning signs had returned, so last week when we had had a row I looked at his mobile. I found some fairly incriminating messages. I then checked his bank statements and found MANY occurances of large sums of money being withdrawn for no apparent reason. I confronted him with this, and he tried to explain it away (unconvincingly). After more pressure from me, he finally admitted he's been using Mephedrone ('not regularly... probably once a fortnight')! Since then he seems to have lost the plot completely, not going to work and basically behaving like a prick. I've kicked him out and he's gone to his mothers. That was 3 days ago and I've heard nothing from him . I'm gutted about it all. He knows how I feel about drugs (never touched them, infact I don't even drink). I'm not even gutted for me (I will get over his betrayal eventually), just for my poor DS and tiny DD who will grow up without their dad around.

So sorry for rambling. Please someone reassure me that I've done the right thing. Was feeling so strong but now... I don't know how I feel.

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Hammy01 · 06/07/2010 13:01

Have been reading this thread and just wanted to say keep strong Mercury.
For your DP not to have even got in touch implies that he has stuck his head in the sand and not facing up to reality yet.
Possibly, gone on a binge so he hasn't got to deal with the real world?
Look at the positives of being single:
At least you won't have to worry about money going missing or finding empty wraps down the side of the sofa or in the garden or telling the kids that'Daddy's not well, thats why he's sleeping' or if they promise to be home by 7pm and they crawl in at 5am next day.
Remind yourself of all the reasons why you kicked him out and keep these in mind - particularly if he comes back to try to reconcile with you.
This may be the kick up the arse he needs to get some professional help, help and support him but do not allow him to move back until you've seen a remarkable turnaround in his behaviour.
Of course this is all just advice from MN and RL is always harder but hopefully the advice has given you the support that YOU need right now
Good luck (and yes, I have been there)

Oblomov · 06/07/2010 13:15

Just wanted to back up Susia. Based on the fact that £100 of coke is a tiny amount and there would not be enough to sell. His bahaviour does sound very odd. And I am not suggesting for a minute that you should NOT have thrown him out.
I am just hoping that in the calm of day, you will be able to get perspective on this, support from MN and maybe advice from an organisation, that will enable you to make good decisions.

IsGraceAvailable · 06/07/2010 15:13

Just a bit more backup from someone who's been around drugs for a long time, Mercury

Tbh I think the debate about which drugs he prefers is spurious. He's acting like a twat, stopped going to work has taken too much pocket money out of the family account so there's not enough left for essentials, and has broken his promise to stop using.

Whether he's using coke, booze, hookers, heroin, porn or an OW, the situation remains unchanged: His family is not his first priority

I'm very sorry it's happened to you, Mercury. You've done the right thing. Yes, start sorting out your practicalities. Surround yourself with friends & family, allow yourself to feel upset, and have a few treats. All the best! x

AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 15:17

Excellent advice from Grace

Saying some drugs in some amounts are kinda OK is spectacularly missing the point, IMO

maryz · 06/07/2010 15:35

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GeekOfTheWeek · 06/07/2010 15:56

Op you have done the right thing.

Better a single parent than with some loser.

AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 16:00

maryz, I have seen bits of your story before

I feel so, so bad for you and I truly hope this horrible stage in his life is just that, and that he survives it relatively intact x

Carbonated · 06/07/2010 16:42

OP you have absolutely done the right thing.

Maryz your son sounds like my brother at the same age and it was awful for everyone concerned. Mum kicked him out and that was awful too, but eventually he got himself sorted and is a decent human being now at 32. I think that happens for most people. Hope things improve for you soon.

DillyDora · 06/07/2010 16:52

Mercury just from a quick read of your post and this thread I have to add my twopennorth:

RUN.LIKE.HELL

That's it and all about it. I don't want to tell my whole story here but as he's your partner not a relative you can walk and it's really the only way.

Maryz I'm so sorry, there is hope, people do recover but we can't save them. I would strongly recommend you and your family get to some Families Anonymous meetings, this will really really help. Good luck.

maryz · 06/07/2010 17:30

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AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 17:48

oh, good luck !!

sugarpear · 06/07/2010 18:00

mercury: i have been exactly where you are. im going back a few years but i had 5 kids and the youngest was 7 months when my ex walked out and it toook me 5 weeks to find him and then another month before i found out he was using cocaine. Before he went he was using occasionally then he got more and more hooked. Then came the cheating.

I have for 5 years now tried to keep my marriage going. But he always got drawn back to the coke and the cheating.

Sasia your advice is so wrong i can begin to start. Im on my own now and ive had a really shit day having started divorce proceedings this morning. But i would rather be on my own with my kids in charge of my own finances rather than live not knowing if the bills will get paid cos all the money has gone up his nose. Wondering if his going to turn on me and physically abuse me because his so off his nut. So yeah being a single mum is no fun but living with a drug addict is a 1000 times worse.

AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 18:42

Sorry for your horrible experiences, sp

Coolfonz · 06/07/2010 18:43

MS - As i said it's not the drugs per se, it's the fact he's obviously lied to you. Most people do intoxicants one way or the other. Is £100/£150 enough to deal? Possibly, but not in any major way, more like passing it on to your friends.

Like I said I personally hate coke and what it does to people, both in the short and long term. I have seen a number of my friends really damage their lives with it. Some have come through unaided, one who was on the pipe with a girlfriend with a full blown crack habit is now back as a lawyer, albeit in Bangkok with a 24 year old girlfriend in tow, but at least he isn't high any more.

But then I have two people close to me, my brother in law and one of my best mates from school, both alcoholics, one a lawyer who has a serious liver condition (his Dad died from a burst liver also an alcoholic), one a senior charity fundraiser.

So the drugs aside, he is being an idiot as has already been pointed out.

Maryz - Sorry to hear this indeed.

Whoever asked me about MDMA, yes, it stops you orgasming temporarily.

MercurySummer · 06/07/2010 19:55

Grace, I think you have summed it up. It doesn't even matter what he's doing, he's lied about it. And as yet has shown no remorse about any of it... and in fact I think he's still convincing himself it's all my fault. (he told me that he has this double life because I am 'too involved with the children'.)
sugarpear- I'm so sorry to hear you have been through this too. It's shit isn't it? Did your DH/XDH ever show any kind of remorse?
Maryz- I really hope that your story has a happy ending. x

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AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 19:59

don't you dare accept any of the blame

of course he will try to shifit the responsibilty for his shitty actions...because accepting he is in the wrong would mean he had to stop

and he won't do that, will he?

MercurySummer · 06/07/2010 20:07

But when someone wears you down by always telling you the same thing over and over, you start to believe it a bit... even though you know deep down they're wrong, IYSWIM?
He text me tonight to ask how the kids were, and said 'I don't know whether this is turning out the way you wanted or expected'. What does that mean??

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AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 20:10

don't try to analyse him, you will get bogged down in smoke and mirrors

just concentrate on moving forward

do have support in RL (I mean people who know what the real issue is ?)

MercurySummer · 06/07/2010 20:25

You're right. I think I'm over-analysing everything right now. I've got my mum who knows the full story, and a couple of close friends who are really great. And everyone on here is keeping me focussed.

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AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 20:27

OK, Analyse This (to quote a movie)...

You gave him a chance once

he blew it

You would be a fool to give him another

MercurySummer · 06/07/2010 20:39

What is that saying? Fool me once, shame on... no, I always get that one confused

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AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 20:45

have a look here

AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 20:50

here it is

Coolfonz · 06/07/2010 20:55

"he told me that he has this double life because I am 'too involved with the children'"

He's a massive idiot. Really big.

AnyFucker · 06/07/2010 20:57

cf...we should team up

the male/female viewpoint that happens to be the reasonable one