I have never in my life been kissed or hugged by mother or father.

[ilovejonty]

I cannot touch them even now. It feels wrong and as if there is a physical barrier.

I am always kissing and hugging my ds (dozens of times a day). I worry that I am too smothering but I am affectionate and want him to be affectionate.

oh shit sorry, zombie post! didn't realise.

I am in the same boat. I never had any affection from my parents. My husband always mocks me as we do this awkward cheek kiss when we say goodbye to each other (I'd much rather just a wave!!!) I am not a hugger with friends... or even much with my husband. But my two boys are smothered in affection at all times!!! Kisses cuddles and squeezes at any opportunity.

I had the exact same situation, I remember the first and only time I kissed my dad it was because he ended up in hospital and was in a very bad way....and I literally had to force myself to push past that barrier to give him a kiss, it felt so unnatural, I would have felt more comfortable hugging a stranger I think. It's awful.

Your comment made me cry, well i had the situation yesterday when i left home with my husband and my brain couldn’t stop thinking about how my parents messed up my psychology but at the same time i love them without showing it physically

Omg yea that happened to me a month ago my aunt came to see my dad and she started crying and hugging him kissing his hand and i was do shocked that she could be so comfortable being affectionate with him while I’m his daughter and i couldn’t even be close to him well i spent that night crying my eyes out