Can anyone help please?

[mpuddleduck]

Iam in shock,and don't know what to do.
dh isn't a violent man but hit me repeatedly 3 nights ago when drunk, saying I don't love him and who was I sh--ging, and in front of the children.
He said he was going to kill me and I left with the terrified children who had been woken by the crashing of furniture and slept in the car. But I had nowhere to go and came back.
dh hasn't said a word, we have been polite but not talked at all.
I have never found showing my emotions easy but I'm not sure I do love him anymore.
I would'nt say I'm in a violent relationship, he has been violent when drunk before, but not often, it is always my fault for not showing I love him, he just needs to be loved.

no no no no no for godsake no.

keep a physical and emotional distance and don't get sucked back in.

Going to sleep and absenting yourself from family life after not seeing the dcs for a while is not trying in my book.
Stay strong mpuddleduck you will be alright without him you've done well so far.
Don't let him weedle his way in by emotional blackmail, he needs to prove to you how he has 'changed' and atm he isn't is he?

I hope you don't mind me keep coming back to this thread, it helps me think to write it down and get your responses.
H left again today, dd2 (2.9)was very upset, and I just wanted to cry because its all my fault daddy was leaving again, I know its not, but it is my choice.
He took the 2 ds's to the beach yesterday, but left dd2 with me, so much for giving me a break when he visits. I came home today to a dirty potty in the middle of the dining room.
I think I really need to sort my head out and tell him its over for good (don't I?),
but feel I need to talk it through with someone in real life, but who?

where in the UK are you roughly, mp ?

Having a bit of a wobble this weekend. Talked to a lawyer friend a couple of days ago and think I have decided I really need to sort things out financially now.
Just reading my threads again to reassure myself Iam doing the right thing.
I can't believe it has been 7 months, but then he hasn't seen the children for 3 months.

Good strategy, to reread the stuff he did. You've done well, mpuddleduck. It's been tough, but you've done well.