Guess the old saying is true - what goes around comes around.
My h and I split last year after a long time of being unhappy together. I instigated the split after trying to rectify things for a long time and prior to the split I met someone and stupidly fell in love. Obviously I left my h, and after a short break for me to sort things out, me and NM became an item.
I should also add that he had already split with his wife a few months before he met me. He has a 3 yr dd.
I have never fallen in love before and after a long while, I let myself fall. And he felt the same. We talked about anything and everything and both said we'd never felt this way about anyone before, even our previous spouses. He even proposed to me and said I was his soul mate. We talked about when he could move in, take over mortgage, family cars, etc, etc.
Over Christmas NM was quiet. He assured me it was nothing major, just a bit bored of spending so much time at home with not much to do (he works away and i work daily in my home town so obv had to go to work whilst he didn't). He moved in with his mum after his split and still lives there. Stayed over a couple of nights a week at mine when he was back. I gave him a key to my place as a Xmas present.
He went away to work at the end of December, assuring me he loved me and would miss me. He hasn't called and texted as much as usual so tonight I text him and asked if he was okay. He said he had a lot on his mind lately, so I asked if he'd changed his mind about us. His reply was that he didn't know, was thinking different things all the time and would call me at the weekend. I asked him to call me.
Upshot is that he is not sure what he wants. He doesn't want to f*ck things up, but thinks that he got together with me too quickly after the split with his ex (about 3 months). Technically it's nothing to do with me apparantly, I haven't don't anything wrong or changed in anyway. Doesn't want to be with anyone else, but thinks he needs some time on his own. Says he feels an arse for treating me like this, is the last thing he wants but wouldn't finish things with me for definite.
I can slowly feel my heart being broken. Which is probably what I deserve but it doesn't stop it hurting any less.
He is back in about a week and wants to discuss things face to face.
Don't know why I'm posting, just feel lost and don't know what to do. Should I give him time? Or should I fight for what I thought was love?