Just said some unforgivable things in front of my children...

[Lonelymum]

...to both them and dh. But I feel so betrayed and let down right now. I am so miserable and lonely and I would have thought dh would support me when I try to do something about it but no, he just sits around on his backside watching TV and reneging on promises made to me only 24 hours ago.

I don't really want to go into details, but I have no-one else to talk to (dh has taken the kids into another room so they don't have to hear the terrible things I am coming out with) and I feel so sad.

Dh put his hands around my throat to push me away from them all and I heard one of my kids crying at the sight. I know no-one is around right now but I have to get this out.

Thanks WWW. We are mainly going to be away next week but the week after I will be wanting things to do (without dh unfortunately). SS Great Britain is close to the top of my list as dh and I are mad on history as are ds1 and 2. Also dh is a mechanical engineer and the boys probably will be too (sigh) so it will be a real treat for us.

Maybe you'd all like the Industrial museum I walked past this am but it was closed, open from 10am Weds-Sat I think.

Lonelymum

I read your post last night & I have been thinking about you this morning.

I'm so sorry about the way you are feeling, I have been very low in the past and know how hard it can be.

Anyway I thought of something you might be able to look into perhaps now right now but if you start feeling a bit better. I think you need desperately to do something for you, have something in your life other than your lovely children, now they are getting a bit older.

In our area they run free access courses for women who are thinking about returning to work - mostly aimed at sahm's, although others too (I did it when I left college and was out of work for ages). The one I did was admin / IT based but the main thing was building confidence, meeting others, and having someone to discuss your ideas with, about how to get back into the world of work. There is someone who can help you prepare for interviews etc if you get that far.

Our courses are run by the local technical college, could you ask your local job centre if there is anything similar?

Oh and I hope you do get to the mothers & toddlers. I went to a church one recently when I had to take ds to a different baby clinic and the ladies were absolutely lovely, so welcoming, and the vicar dropped in for a chat too. So if you went you might then feel you knew someone who you might see at the church?

Anyway lonelymum I do wish you lots of courage and a big cyber hug, hope you can start to make a few little steps soon that might make you feel a bit better.

Vicky x

She read my mind,lmum!!