My husband and I have been together for almost 11 years. In that time he has gotten addicted to meth, been verbally physically and emotionally abusive. The first year of our marriage he got caught trying to get a female to go out with him. He comes back from that job with my name on his neck as proof of love and that he only wanted me. In one of his drugged out rages he gave me two black eyes and a concussion. He recently got back on drugs after years clean. He started with the mental games and abuse all over again and it was always my fault. Through it all I've loved him. This past weekend he got caught yet again trying to hook up with a female. He actually had the nerve to compare it to my ex walking into my place of work and me having to wait on him as a customer.Then said he did it to teach me a lesson. I made him leave and he tells me if I love him I will let him come home so we can work it out. I told him I wasn't saying never but I needed time to heal. He told me that if not then he was done completely and would never be back. He says we have been together too long for me to just throw it away just like that. Am I wrong?