I'm so so so sick of my ex. He has severe mental health issues. That's part the reason I've tried to stay friendly but distance myself at the same time.
His illness makes him make reckless decisions. It always has. But the last year his decisions have been infuriating and I cannot deal with him anymore. It's like he's completely jealous of my life and plays down and puts down everything about me. But also he literally ruins his own life and is convinced he's not at fault.
He lost his job 18 months ago for stealing and selling some work stuff. This was the beginning of the end for us. Just before he lost his job he bought a gorgeous puppy from some idiot he knew. I had good intentions with the puppy. I got her a lead and collar. I paid for her food. Then weeks and weeks and then months past. He never ever took her outside his flat to pee or walk. He never got her injections and never trained her. So she slept in the bed with us. Took over the whole house but wasn't living a dogs life. He sold her for £100 in March. Lied to the people who got her. Said she was lead trained. After the dog went he got in with a shit crowd. He began lying. Spending money
but rent and bills were ignored. Then he had the nerve to ask me for money for fags and food whilst going into victim mentality. We split up around this time. He had some lad living with him and between them I presume drugs and allsorts were going on.
I got myself a pet cockertial recently. She's adorable. He has been leaning on me abit lately. He came round (stupid I know) I was recently put on steroids as my skin broke out from stress. I have felt so exhausted over Christmas. Working and trying to do allsorts. I think I just got ill from the pressure. The nurse called me the other day to update my treatment plan. He was sat on my sofa whilst I told the nurse I got stressed and tired. After I hung up he said what was you telling her that for she was ringing you about your rash.
All week he's been saying wherever he goes People are telling him he's great and they wish they could be him bla bla bla. Bullshit comments all the time.
Today I went shopping with my kids. I got some toys for my new bird and the kids spent their christmas money. He's been laid in bed starving and mardy with no money for days. Constantly whinging. Whilst I'm out today he's text saying he's got a new dog. It's a staffy crossed with a cane corso. He claims its 10 weeks old. The lad down the road sold it and he wants a hundred pound (he hasn't got a penny to his name) on further questioning he needs to buy it food and a lead etc. So I made a comment on well you will need to make sure you do feed it properly. He then said he didn't know why I bought my bird a toy and ladder today as its only a bird and had enough in its cage. He wanted to bring the dog up. I said no it might turn on my cockertial.
I just don't want to be friends with him anymore or bother with him. He makes my blood boil. I only stayed friends because of self harm. But I really can't stand his lifestyle.