Should expose brothers abuse or keep quiet

[OddTrek38]

I don't know where to start with this or even if I shld share.
Been viewing this site for years but something has clicked today and I need advice.
Will try not to drip feed.
I'm nearly 50, have a wonderful husband and child but am struggling with historical child abuse issues and am drinking way too much to help me forget it.
But I dont forget and am getting worse the older I get.
My brother sexually abused me for years between ages of 8 - 10 and much as I've tried to forget it, its raising its head more the older I get.
Not sure what I'm asking for, has anyone had this and has advice

Sending you deep sleep and sweet dreams. You deserve every happiness. I’m glad releasing some of that rage has helped you feel a bit better.

It’s like lancing a boil. You’ve held everything bottled up for so long. There may be a few more bursts of emotion that you need to express, or that she responds with. That’s ok. It’s a filthy messy business, but you are not at the root of it. This is on your brother and your mother. You are doing the cleaning, but it isn’t your mess. 💐

I hear your anger OP. I hope you feel better for sending the email.

I’ve suggested it before but please approach NAPAC. They will understand too, and give you the support you deserve and their helpline at least is free.

You have done nothing wrong. Your abuser is the one in the wrong, along with all those who colluded then and now with him.