im not sure if what I am experiencing is abuse . My husband will punch me on arms and legs , slap me , pull my hair and has put a knife to my side and throat. The thing is , he doesn’t do it in a temper , he’s very cool and calm when he does it . Sometimes it can be out if the blue and other times he says it’s part of play fighting and just a joke . Sometimes he says it’s a warning in case I have an affair (which I never would) it never started out like this and in the early days it was almost like he was play fighting me . When he does it now though it hurts and it sometimes scares me . He calls me names but says it’s all in fun . He is very critical of my 19 year old son and will now hardly speak to him . I’m ashamed I’ve let things go this far . He is very generous and that confuses me a lot . There have been other times that he’s refused to speak to me for weeks on end . Reading this back I know how awful it sounds . Living with it day to day though is so confusing as he can be Prince Charming . I feel like I’ve lost all sense of ego I am and I know I’ve let my son down . Please be kind as I need support and guidance