Hi all, needing to venr & get some perspective as my head is all over the place.
I have a 3 year old son and have been with my partner for 15 years. We've had a very rough time since our son was born, our relationship was badly rocked by a newborn, PPA & lockdowns. We're now in a much better place but I wouldn't say 100%, I'm not sure if you can ever forget coming that close to separating.
I'm six weeks into an unplanned pregnancy, we had talked generally about a second child but never felt ready. I am scared but happy, he wants me to have a termination. We've been trying our best to have conversations rather than arguments but he's said, IMO, some really awful things that I just can't forget. Eg:
"I'll resent you forever if you have it"
"You're going to fuck my life up"
"I'm worried about our sex life, I wasn't attracted to you after birth & your vagina was loose"
Does anyone have any tips or experience of how to move forward with this? I have made it clear to him that I am not terminating, I now feel like I am waiting for him to leave and am walking round on eggshells scared to mention anything about the pregnancy. I want to be happy but I can't be.