Hello, I have been in a relationship for 10 years since 15 and all of it was very hard. I am addicted to the relationship and every time I try to leave I go back. He can be very sweet but when he gets mad it is terrifying. I have gone to the hospital 3 separate occasions due to his anger. He has not hurt me since 2018 but now he is just always angry and today we went to eat at a restaurant he accidentally spilled a full cup of hot coffee on my legs. He asked if I wanted to take it to go so I said yes as soon as I got in the car he yelled at me and told me I screwed up his whole day that he hates me and am lucky he didn't smash my face in. From there he went 90 on a back road to scare me I think and when we got home he broke my chairs threw my meal and said lots of horrible things. I love him so much but I don't feel safe and I can't find a way out that will work where I don't come running back.