I'm one week down and I haven't gone back...tell me to keep going

[kelseypops]

As the title says....

I'm currently sat in my mums living room watching the tv I want to watch. For the first time in a long time.

I left H a week ago. I'm done figuring out if he was abusive or not. If he is narcissistic or not. It really doesn't matter. Apart from going to work, he put zero effort into our marriage.

Tonight I've opened a new bank account and once it's set up, I'll be on to benefits to let them know I'm a single parent.

H is coming to my mums to visit DS - my youngest dc.

I can't believe I've done it. I have no plans on going back and he knows this.

I have no idea where I'll be in a years time. But it's a much better feeling than thinking I'll still be in a loveless marriage feeling sad every day.

First day I'm starting to see a light at the end of a pretty torturous tunnel.

@me4real

Well done *@kelseypops* , you're doing great, keep going.

Today I'm wobbly but I'll be ok. He is convinced I've got someone else - I haven't. His paranoia has been to the extreme....yet I found out he's messaged an ex of his

It sounds like you're still having more conversation with him than is healthy. Don't have conversations with them except about practicalities that you can't avoid.

Yes it's true, he does it when he says he wants to talk to DS who is only 3 and isn't that interested in soeaking to him.

I am 100% firm and stand my ground. It just hurts that he's messaged an ex girlfriend at the same time as accusing me of contacting other men when I've done absolutely nothing and have no intention of doing so as that's not what I need in my life right now. That's where my wobbles come from. There's absolutely no way I will ever go back, I've come this far now. I've always dreamed of getting to the place I am now - sleeping in a double bed with 2 of my dcs! I'm sleeping better than I ever have before aswell.