The Spookster

[spook]

Hi girls.Can't post on that one so it'll have to be this one!!! Phew-close one.

And yes ofcourse the likelihood is that he certainly WILL say no!

Crikey-am so overexcoited have to go for tab.

Spook i spent the day with my x, we pissed ourselves laughing, held hands, kissed our boys, i could handle it i was strong. i watched him get on the train after that and broke down, if we got on that well why did he go back to her, i was strong, but not strong enough for that.
I swear on my life i want him back to this day, i want to kill her, i have not had one day yet where he isn't in my head, he has ruined me and made me hurt more than i thought i was physically capable of. everything i have done to get revenge has fallen back on me, it hasn't worked.
I leave him now and pretend i am fine as after having your heart broken you don't need anymore rejection. i say to myself at what point did i decide that it was exceptable to treat myself like dirt and plead in my heart for someone affection. the answer is never and he can piss off.
i get far more hassle off him since this change, i get drunken phone calls and texts, he is learning the consequences of his actions, which i protected him from for far too long.

wise and profound words Fairyfly

Oh FF. That is me talking. I will stop and think. I promise.

Sobernow!!!PMSL. What if she said YES!!!
Me,her,carving knife...

Spook, please don't do it. It's bad enough FF had to go through it, without you going through it too. Every time you put your heart on your sleeve to him he rips it off and stamps on it. Don't put yourself through any of it. Quite like Sobernow's idea though!

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Awww hun I hope you don't ask him to go. What if the boys get their hopes up that you'll get back together because you've spent so long as a family in Ibiza? You may be stronger but it's difficult to know what's going on in their little heads.

My friends husband just said to me-this could go one of two ways Spook. It could be either and abberation or a catastrophe.

Oh dear.My gorgeous DS1 has been quiet and snappy since his dad dropped him off this afternoon.Then at bedtime it all just fell apart.He started sobbing and eventually talked to me about ow sad he was and how much he misses his daddy. I though I'd brought him round and he had gone to sleep feeling a little better but just come downstairs in floods again asking to speak to his daddy. Oh God.It's heartbreaking the fucking bastard

nothing to advise spook.. just sending some {hugs} for you..
It must be a total stressful nightmare, and I am amazed about how 'together' you are.. (and you are)

I don't know enough to talk about kh (knobhead?)
but I think You are INCREDIBLE.. in your humour,and above all your honesty.
Nobody who is as honest as you will be short of friends and support.
You are doing great job... you really are.

Oh Unicorn. Thankyou so so much cookie. No-one has ever called me incredible before.Especially not in BOLD capitals!! Much love and humility XXXX

Oh spook, freckle is talking so much sense, but you know that. Your poor ds. God, your h is such a bastard. The best revenge is living well remember. Sorry if that sounds trite.

Hi girls. No he's coming to bed with me.We've found him a fab new book to start and we're going to cuddle up and read our books in bed together.
that fills my heart with happiness and an incredible sadness all at the same time if you know what I mean??!

Though I have to be up for 5 more mins coz just about to win beautiful Marc Jacobs jacket on Ebay and no fuckers going to outbid me at the 11th hour. A son after my own heart-he completely understands

Omigod Sobernow. Don't. Made my eyes water. It's NOTHING that any of us wouldn't do given the horrid tragic circumstances. And anyway-he does give a great cuddle (if a little bony!!)

Buggar. Just go for quick cuddle and come back and some complete unknown has pipped me by 4 quid. Don't you just hate it when that happens!!!
Oh well-wasn't meant to be.
Night night my guardian angels.Tomorrow is another day XXXXXXXX