Im 36 on Wednesday. In a relationship of 8 months that I was happy in, both said we love each other. But it’s not going anywhere , I’m not even sure he’s remembered it’s my birthday. He’s a couple of years older and while we have spoken about wanting a family and settling down, he’s rarely desperate to see me or eager to book a mini break etc. I just know it’s not going anywhere and basically it’s another heartbreak coming up that I know I need to deal with I just can’t this second. I thought it was it with him.
I’ve had enough. I’ve dated and had relationships and for one reason or another they’ve not worked out. I’ve watched my siblings get marrie and have kids (I’m older). I’ve done most things alone and I have a nice home, lovely friends but nobody to share my life with.
I don’t think I can do this anymore. I don’t want to carry on my lonely life. I’ve been positive and energetic and hopeful for so long and now I have nothing left