My child is positive so we are isolating. My “d” H has been awful over the years but since isolating he’s become a monster and frankly I’m scared. He’s not physically abusing me, but he talks to me like I’m crap on his shoe, gives me silent treatment, blocks me on everything, creates the most awful atmosphere. He throws stuff around and is like an ogre. I have just been hit by this wave of realisation that I can’t do this anymore. In the past he’s been jealous, paranoid, put me down, isolated me bit by bit from my family whom I’ve moved away from. He drinks a lot at night too and I hate it. I cannot bear to converse with him when he’s been drinking as he’s scarily jovial . Thin veneer which cracks in to anger . I hate my life with him he makes me so miserable and sad. The happiest days of my life were when I was a child and I felt truly loved and cherished. I felt loved for who I am. His presence in the house makes my stomach knot and I get palpitations. I dream of being alone . I’m scared he’s going to escalate in to violence. He looks at me like he wants me dead. I can’t even leave the house.