So I’m 19+6 days pregnant with my current partner. I have twin boys from a previous relationship.
My current relationship isn’t great. We’ve been together 1 year and 1/2 but so much has happened during this time and then I fell pregnant so I felt obligated to stay. A few weeks ago he cheated on me (I was 15 weeks). He met a girl in a pub and brought her back, they didn’t sleep together but they did other things. They were both drunk. I decided to forgive and forget for the sake of my baby. Since then he’s broken his ankle and knee and is bed bound in my house.
Anyway, the last few days I’ve just been feeling so unhappy. He got upset with me yesterday because he asked me to go up the shop to get him fags and I told him id be going up in an hour or so. He started calling me childish etc. because I wouldn’t go immediately. I ended up crying down the phone to my mother, who told me I deserve better than this and I know I do. This isn’t the first time I’ve been called names when all I do is try to look after him. I’m constantly doing everything for him and it’s exhausting.
I just don’t want to do it anymore but since he’s on crutches I feel like I can’t really break up with him because it would be hard for him to leave right now. At the same time, I felt happier when he was in hospital for 2 weeks than I do with him here.
I’m not really concerned about being a single mother. I was a single mother to my boys before I met him, and I know I have enough support around me that I’ll be okay. Although, I am struggling to feel attached to this baby. I’ve experienced so much stress throughout the pregnancy that I haven’t had a chance to get excited yet.
Thank you for reading, I’m just looking for some advice on what to do next. I feel so trapped and unhappy