I lost both my parents last year, Dad to Covid 19 and Mum to Alzheimers. I thought I was coping extremely well over the last few months, just having a tear every so often when a nice memory came to me.
However, for the last while I’ve had no sleep. I’m tired when I go to bed but then pictures of their dead faces keep coming into my head and won’t go away. I was with my Dad when he died and it was peaceful. I wasn’t with my Mum but raced to her and spent some time alone with her after she had died. None of these experiences frightened me at the time and I was glad I was there. Now though, I feel anxious, frightened I think, it’s a difficult thing to describe and I just can’t seem to shift those pictures from my head when I retire at night. What to do? 😢