I’m feeling really blue today. I want to disappear for a few weeks, just to see whether anyone cared. When I came back, maybe people would tell me they love me. Maybe they would say that I mean something to them. Maybe they would tell me they missed me.
(Who am I kidding, they would yell at me for being selfish and irresponsible.)
I’m not going to disappear. But if anyone has anything nice to say about me, I really need to hear it right now. Problem is that I don’t know how to get them to say it 
. I can’t email my friends and colleagues saying “tell me why you like me, tell me why I matter.” And if I did maybe they wouldn’t have anything to say after all. I’m hurting and it would mean the absolute world to me right now to have an unsolicited compliment or thanks from somebody, to know I mean anything.