In other news my nice fella Mr Bike has made it to date 7 now and this sounds awful as he is really lovely, but he is really not good in bed (I've given it a go 3 times now). I mean he enjoys it, but ... I think I am going to have to stop seeing him because I'm starting to use him as a fallback guy when I feel a bit needy, but he likes me more than I like him. And I can't fix sexual incompatibility, can I? And my friend with benefits Mr Extreme (who I've been chatting to on and off since I split up with Mr Beard) dropped me for a better offer on Saturday (he said lads night but I don't believe him) which is fine as it's our deal, but he didn't even message me, I had to ring him, and he messaged and was like "oh sorry you hadn't been in touch since Monday, so I thought you changed your mind". We agreed not to message much in case we get attached so that is bollocks, so I've dropped him now. But he was useful to have, with Mr Bike being not so good in bed, and he made me laugh too.
I also have a date tomorrow and numerous other nameless irons lurking in the ether for when I find time. But they all still come up short compared to Mr Beard. Tomorrow's chap, Mr Local, isn't after anything serious though, so I don't feel bad. And he is funny. As someone mentioned up thread (@HairyArsedMan*?) I think I am a bit of a show pony who loves first dates but CBA with subsequent ones. I was like that before Mr Beard and am even more so after him. Maybe it's because nobody compares to him, or maybe because I can only think of one decent outfit!
I'm beginning to feel it is hard work but I'm so shit at spending time alone or working through my issues I just keep at it. I also attract maniacs. But then my friend said to me 'that isn't true, you attract loads of people and you CHOOSE the maniacs because you are a head case'. I do wonder!