I have been silenced.......................

[ConcentricCircles]

Where to begin.After knowing each other for 8 years, my partner persuaded me to live with him so that we could sort and decorate this house, then search for a joint house and thus have a 'rest of our lives' fabulous time together.
Well, it isn't. He's lazy. will only clean up when suggested to. Only bathes approx twice a week. Won't cook. Makes no effort to go out except to do what suits him, spending most of the time in the corner of the room on his screen telling me he expects me to be silent and not disturb him. etc.
I feel I have been lied to.
I'm now in the spare room as the bedroom stinks so much due to his lack of hygiene.
He tells me he has anxiety, so I've worked with that. Tried to boost his self esteem/confidence, bit my tongue when things don't get done as if I do say anything he closes his eyes, does big sighs, then goes to bed, making me feel bad.
Yesterday - and not for the first time - he blew up at me, no sign of anxiety , yelled, swore and stormed off to bed. He's still there. He did get up this morning, but for once I was really cross and told him in no uncertain terms that after 4 years of this, I've had enough, that he needs to see a doc if his anxiety is that bad. He then closed his eyes, sighed and went back to bed, and is still there.

Is this really how anxiety manifests itself? I knew him for 8 years previous to moving in and had no sign of it apart from him cancelling a couple of weekends as he needed 'some quiet time', which I though nothing of.

So, I have learned to know my place. I have been silenced...........he thinks!

I've decided to leave and move somewhere I've always wanted to live. I've spent the day searching for jobs and places to rent. I've found a place where, in my head, I'm living already..................

............and I feel so bloody sad. What a waste.

[Cheesecakejar]

In response to anyone who suggested finding someone else to 'look after him,' the OP owes him absolutely nothing. Honestly I have been in this exact situation, he's just a lazy slob and it might actually do him good to be left so he has to face up to how he is acting, hopefully he even improves himself. Please keep us updated OP. You don't know how much I'm rooting for you to get an amazing job and live life to the full again!

[BumbleBeee69]

good luck with the jobs OP..

[L0cked0utL0ck392]

No turning back now

Good luck for a better future and a new start

[Deathraystare]

I have always been shocked when passing a particularly smelly individual to find a perfectly smart, non stinky woman accompanying them. I thought they might be noseblind, but are just resigned!