I've namechanged for this. I met a guy at work not so long ago, found we had some things in common so started chatting outside work. For the last few months we've chatted almost non stop. At first he was very 'nice' to me.. is the best way I can describe it. He was complimentary, and talked about things we could do after lockdown ends. We would talk into the night (we still do). I suppose, stupidly I thought he genuinely liked me, at least as a friend.
Things turned and became flirty, which became more. I am stupid and I admit that. But we shared images.
We work in the same office and we agreed to keep the chat to a minimum while we're at work and he told me we need to be 'discreet'. I said I thought we were friends and that I didn't care if other colleagues knew we had a friendship.
In the last few weeks things have changed. When you don't see someone in 'real life'its difficult to understand their sense of humour. He told a few 'jokes' which I took the wrong way and I pulled him up on them. For some messed up reason I continued to talk to him.. also continued with the flirty chat.
Recently he's asked me if I've ever been detained for mental health (I was off work with anxiety after we went on lockdown and he knows about this). He said that when he met me he assumed I was 'dull and frigid'. There are more backhanded compliments..
I realise I'm being negged, slut shamed, whatever. But I keep going back for more and more. I feel like the worst has already happened, I've already shared images and I've already been insulted.. so what's the point? I can't change things.
I feel like my colleagues know, even though they don't. I've been very quiet the last few days, and have cried in the toilets a few times
He opened up about having form for sex with colleagues. This really upset me, which was the intention. I overheard him flirting with another colleague and I had to leave early.. as I almost threw up.
It's half an hour before I have to leave for work and I don't know how to get through today.
Please help..