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If you are married/a parent, help me take off the rose tinted glasses about it? (I’m single and sad about it!)

150 replies

TrafficJamz · 27/07/2019 22:13

After some absolutely wonderful advice from lovely mumsnetters about being single and really wanting children...I thought this thread may be a dose of reality.

I will always want kids more than anything and the whole DH set up, but in the meantime, tell me the downsides so I can appreciate where I am in life?!

:)

OP posts:
justilou1 · 28/07/2019 23:09

I have been married for 17 years to someone whose snoring is legendary. Obviously he’s not getting any younger, slimmer or fitter, so the snoring’s not getting quieter. I have begged, cried, threatened to leave, etc. I have recorded him and played it back at social functions to embarrass him. I have recorded the volume in decibels and found things that compare, including a church which was fined £10000 for playing loud gospel music and rock bands AFTER being sound-proofed, and banned Fisher-Price toys, Boeings taking off at 5:40am into the wind, etc..... This year I lost my actual shit in counselling. I told him that I was buying a single bed for him and setting it up in the lounge room and he could explain it to everyone he knows. He booked a sleep apnoea test that week. 46 episodes per hour, one extremely expensive machine (not at all sexy) and I FINALLY get some fucking sleep. 17 YEARS!!!

justilou1 · 28/07/2019 23:10

Just adding that there is nothing quite like prolonged periods of intimacy to kill off any desire for intimacy.

Alanis41 · 29/07/2019 04:18

Lots of funny stories here, I wanted to be in love and have this wonderful relationship. Ended up with someone gorgeous yet abusive and drunk, now I'm bringing up two toddlers alone. So much happier without the stress of walking on eggshells. Helps that I have a great FWB. Just saying, it's not always as rosy as you thought it was going to be.

Skittlenommer · 29/07/2019 08:44

From a different perspective, I am child free by choice and can honestly say my life is complete and utter bliss.

Apart from work, every moment of my life is my own, I travel to new places several times a year (7 countries this year alone), when I get home in the evening if I’m tied I can binge watch Netflix and fall asleep whenever I want and regularly get a solid 10 hours sleep. My life is very indulgent (regular deep tissue massages, beauty treatments, meals out, personal trainer etc). I love being spontaneous. If I want to pack up and head up to the Lake District one Friday and camp under the stars I can. All difficult stuff where possible is outsourced, for example hiring a housekeeper. I can’t remember the last time I used a duster or vacuumed.

I can’t speak for being single though as I’m married and have been with my DH for 11 years (since uni). We have the best relationship. We’re best friends. We laugh constantly. We split tasks 50/50. Our house is, happy, quiet and calm. So many of our friends, together for decades split shortly after having a child. My sister recently went through a brutal divorce and said having a child was the reason her marriage broke down.

Not trying to be boastful here but many people don’t even consider that not having children is an option (we almost didn’t). It just seems like the next natural step but it doesn’t have to be. It’s a valid and amazing option that everyone should consider!

foreverhanging · 29/07/2019 09:06

I'll start by saying I do love my DH and my DD.

I crave alone time, I am crawled over, asked for things constantly, and sometimes I just want to be left alone for a small amount of time. This never happens.
I had PND and wished I was dead for the best part of a year.
My dh also had a version of PND and also didn't help. It was awful.
She had reflux and was projectile sick, several times a day, I'd have to clean it all up and then she would be sick again. Everything smelled for a very long time like sour milk. She'd even get the dog.
She did not sleep through until 18 months. At one point she was waking every 45 minutes, and after a feed because of the reflux I would have to hold her upright for 30 mins. I was completely broken.
I miss being able to pick up my keys and purse and go.
When dh works away I am unable to leave the house after bedtime.
It takes me up to 3 hours to put her to sleep.
I am fat. So very fat. Combination of baby weight, depression, no time to eat, and eating secretly around the corner because she tries to steal all my food.
I never do make up, I never do my hair bar washing it (only twice a week max as that's all the time I have), I look like shit.
When washing my hair usually I have a small person shouting 'mummyyyy where aaareeee yoouuuu' and I never get to get dressed leisurely. It's always chuck stuff on while still half wet.
I drive a really, really, shit car. I always dreamed of having a 2 seater sports car.
My dd broke my nose by smashing her head into it.
My marriage is getting better now but for a while I literally hated my husband and resented his freedom. This still pops up occasionally.
I got no help. At all. People who said they'd help did not. After 2 weeks people stopped coming over. Nobody wanted to ever see me anymore anyway, it was just the baby. And then they'd just want to hold her while I did everything else. The only person that helped was my mum, except she worked full time so I'd see her for ten minutes during the week and maybe a small amount at the weekend. Nobody cooked for me or asked how I was. People still don't.
My dd will not eat what I make her. I hate throwing away food and I have to do it every day. I can't eat it because I'm fat already.
Fucking everyone wants a say about how you raise your child. People buy them shit you told them not to. People try to use them as dollies and buy them silly clothes and you're expected to put them in them to take a picture. I still refuse this one.

It is relentless. Exhausting. I often dream of my old life. I sound ungrateful, I'm sure, but I'm not listing the things I love.

Hope that helps!

Hm, also just had a thought.

I have a friend who is in her 50s who is single by choice, she has a dog, a lovely husband, a lovely house, a nice car, she goes to Mauritius on holiday, and works part time through choice as she has enough money to do this. She is also mortgage free since 40ish. I never wanted children and always said I wanted to be like her. Chance to do that is gone Grin

foreverhanging · 29/07/2019 09:07

@Skittlenommer I'm off to daydream of being you Grin

TheStuffedPenguin · 29/07/2019 09:14

continuallychargingmyphone

"I live alone waterrat

How much sitting in pub beer gardens do you think I do?"

It always makes me laugh when people who are in relationships say things like " I would love to live alone " blah blah . They have no understanding of what it is like to have a whole weekend yawning ahead of you with no plans other than the ones you make - other friends are difficult to hook up with as they have family commitments etc .

TheStuffedPenguin · 29/07/2019 09:15

Some very odd posts here - I think some of you family girls need to get with the plan a bit Grin

continuallychargingmyphone · 29/07/2019 09:25

forever PLEASE explain to me how your friend is single by choice and also has a lovely husband Confused

I hear Attenborough wants to reduce the population - should direct them to MN!

foreverhanging · 29/07/2019 09:59

@continuallychargingmyphone can you tell I'm typing with a toddler on my head? I meant child free by choice 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️ idiot

bibliomania · 29/07/2019 10:00

there's nothing quite like prolonged periods of intimacy to kill off any desire for intimacy

I think justilou has nicely summarised the thread.

As a counterpoint to those saying the DH bit is fine when you don't have dcs, for me having 1 dc is delightful without the DH. There an Irish drinking song "I'll paddle me own canoe" which is how I feel. I'm happy with my small passenger, but I don't want another unwieldy passenger not pulling his own weight.

mydogisthebest · 29/07/2019 10:04

@Graphista, I am not sure is down to the men in the relationships not helping. I am talking friends that range in age from 70 to early 40's. They say that having children just put a strain on the relationship and things just got worse.

Of course the relationship could have broken down even if the couples concerned had not had children but it is interesting that almost all our friends with children are divorced, some more than once, and all our childfree friends and family (and there are quite a few) are still married (first marriages) and seem happy.

I don't really know any young couples with children as my nieces and nephews so far are all childfree. We do have a couple of neighbours though with 3 children each and their husbands/partners help a lot.

I know one neighbour where the husband works long hours, often 6 days a week and yet still comes home and does the cooking, housework etc. He is late 20's so not all young fathers are lazy

bibliomania · 29/07/2019 10:04

continually, you said yesterday "The whole ‘Yay, you can starfish and watch what you want on telly and being single is GREAT’ wears thin."

Because unfortunately, society never talks about how great it is to be coupled up and have children. Oh, wait....

I think that mn does something very valuable by its dark mutterings that domesticity isn't as delightful as some would have you think.

mydogisthebest · 29/07/2019 10:07

I also meant to add that me and DH have been married 40 years, first marriage for both of us.

We are extremely happy and (sorry for being soppy) but still very much in love. We go on holiday tomorrow and neither can wait just to have so much time together as DH often works long hours or even away from home.

DH is not perfect by any means but I love spending time with him. He is definitely my best friend as well as my husband and lover.

Oh and he doesn't snore unless he has had a drink and he drinks very very rarely

continuallychargingmyphone · 29/07/2019 10:30

And I get that bib but just the same, MN really does have a strange attitude towards it.

There’s the belief that single women are all somehow minted for one - actually living alone is pretty expensive - and that they have starry social lives and exotic holidays.

Maybe that’s true in your twenties but as you get older and your friends are coupled up to be honest the reality is quite sad and cold.

Then the obvious point is, if being single and child free is oh-so-amazing, why don’t people do it!?

I wouldn’t exchange my children for anything. I love them so much and I’ve loved having them around. I love the way when they’re little they make you see the world through their eyes so tiny things like a train journey or a trip to the supermarket are exciting.

Yes, life with children can be dull and monotonous but so can life without children, it’s just life, it isn’t always exciting! Grin

wheresmymojo · 29/07/2019 10:32

Honestly....I've been where you are now (5+ years single in my 30s) and I would say that I agree with the research that says that after a major life event such as marriage you tend to return to your 'base' happiness level.

So if you're usually an 8/10 happy as a single person once the dust settles you'll be 8/10 happy as a married person (ditto if you're a 2/10).

People massively overestimate the positive impact things they want will have on this 'base' level of happiness.

QuilliamCakespeare · 29/07/2019 10:45

I haven't had a lie in for 5.5 years.

I rarely get more than 6 hours sleep per night.

I was so sleep deprived after DS2 I ended up on anti-depressants and seeing a relationship counsellor.

I feel guilty when I spend any 'me' time away from the children and miss them like hell.

My breasts are a shadow of their former self.

I pee my pants when I run or when I'm drunk.

My vulva looks totally different

I am slim but even then, when I sit I have a saggy pouch where the skin on my stomach stretched.

I can't do anything spontaneously because we have to take a changing bag, buggy, snacks, nappies, suncream, hats, spare clothes etc. everywhere we go.

I wouldn't change any of it but hopefully that helps you appreciate the 'now' before family life Smile

bibliomania · 29/07/2019 10:52

Fair point about wealth, continually, and about the general banality of life, whatever your domestic configuration. Choose your flavour of humdrum.

Huskylover1 · 29/07/2019 13:18

I have a friend who is in her 50s who is single by choice, she has a dog, a lovely husband, a lovely house, a nice car, she goes to Mauritius on holiday, and works part time through choice as she has enough money to do this. She is also mortgage free since 40ish. I never wanted children and always said I wanted to be like her. Chance to do that is gone

On a positive note, please remember that you will come through this phase and out the other side!

I can resonate with so many posters on here, about the lack of sleep, the mess, the daily grind etc, but remember that kids grow up and leave. At first, the empty nest is bizarre, horrible actually, but you soon remember what it's like to be you again. Of course your kids never stop needing you, which is fine (moving flats after each Uni year ends, plus lots of financial support), but the daily grind (for want of a better phrase) disappears.

My kids both graduate from Uni next year. When the youngest left, I was 46 and DH was 43. We are now 49/46. We now have the lifestyle that you describe your friend has. DH has a sports car, I have a convertible. We go to the Caribbean. We get as much sleep as we want. Etc. But yes to never sleeping without the mobile next to the bed!

My DH isn't the biological father of my DC. But we've been together a long time. I think Graphista was spot on with her posts. In my experience, most young men just don't cope with having kids. The woman takes on the lion's share of the workload, the men don't understand why she isn't a spontaneous sex kitten anymore, and then as they see their 20's/30's slipping away, they decide that they deserve more than this monotony, and they start shagging a single girl at work. Happened to me, and to EVERY SINGLE ONE of my friends. Sorry, this was meant to be a positive post!

Loopytiles · 29/07/2019 16:36

“if being single and child free is oh-so-amazing, why don’t people do it!?”

They do!

As for what the “reality” of being single (or in a long term relationship) is, it’ll be different for everyone.

Loopytiles · 29/07/2019 16:37

“the men don't understand why she isn't a spontaneous sex kitten anymore”

They do understand. They just don’t want to do a fair share of parenting and domestic work. Think having a penis entitles them not to. Want their partner to do most/all of it AND be sexually attractive and fully available for ego boosting, company, sex, whatever!

Bookaholic73 · 29/07/2019 16:38

All I’ll say is that nobody warned me about the fact that these kids grow into teenagers.

Kevin & Perry was NOT fictional, let’s put it that way.

Graphista · 29/07/2019 16:42

"there's nothing quite like prolonged periods of intimacy to kill off any desire for intimacy

I think justilou has nicely summarised the thread." Yep!

Mydogisthebest - I wasn't saying it was ALWAYS down to the men, nor that it was ALL younger men - there are always exceptions, I was clear about that too.

But I genuinely believe it often is - and while children do add stress to a relationship, they don't in and of themselves wreck relationships, it's the parents response to becoming parents that does that - and that can absolutely include mothers too, but again yes I believe mainly fathers - because what having children DOES often do is illuminate what those men are actually like to their wives/partners.

Also far too many men don't seem to "get" that having DC means you have to grow up, be responsible and prioritise someone other than yourself.

Very often on here (and again I've noted the same in real life) threads about lazy, useless fathers the op notes/admits there were at least hints before having DC of what they were like and that they didn't truly contribute equally to the relationship/home but op ignored/didn't fully register/naively thought fatherhood would improve them! Sometimes more than hints, sometimes blatant - I personally don't understand even getting together with a man like that let alone setting up home and having DC with them.

"Then the obvious point is, if being single and child free is oh-so-amazing, why don’t people do it!?" Do you understand how powerful cultural expectations are? Especially for women in a patriarchal society? Just look at how women who choose to be child free are often described/treated, look at the language around being a single woman and compare it to that used for single men, look at how child free men are described and treated, not to mention the financial differences for single men and women...

It's hugely discouraged to be a single and child free woman. Women are judged successful or not in life based not on career or academic achievements but on the basis of their relationships and family.

I've been single to all intents and purposes - certainly as far as my mother is concerned for 16 years, took about 10 years before she stopped banging on about "getting out there" again, and even then it's only very gradually reduced with her still making comments about how she worries about me being lonely etc certain friends (particularly male ones) especially in the first 5 years were constantly trying to get me to date friends of theirs, introducing me to single men etc - at no time did I EVER ask them to or say I was unhappy being single. They ASSUMED. I almost fell out with my mum and one particular friend over it because it was the FIRST thing they'd say to me whenever I saw them - infuriating and very boring as a topic of conversation.

I have as I've said dated occasionally, had one relationship that at one point had the potential to go further, had flings etc but I don't tell anyone because frankly they'd use the fact to just start banging on again about how awful it must be for me being single and they have the perfect person to introduce me to!

The only person that knows is dd as I'm always open with her and it could potentially impact her if a connection were likely to turn into a serious relationship, but she's only met one of them. She has never once worried about my single status or said she wishes I weren't. She liked that guy well enough but things ended before she knew him very well. Her only comments have ever been along the lines of "stay safe" when meeting new people eg old and asking how things are going in an interested, caring way.

"People massively overestimate the positive impact things they want will have on this 'base' level of happiness." Totally agree with this.

"I think Graphista was spot on with her posts." Thank you - worth noting I think too that 3 of the best fathers/husbands I know don't actually have biological children of their own but are amazing stepfathers who've been in their stepchildren's lives since they were babies/toddlers and massively stepped up where in 2 of the cases the biological fathers were bloody useless! The 3rd the biological father is also ace, but the "original" couple had married very young (under 21) and had grown apart, deciding to divorce as there was no longer a romantic connection, but they remain good friends and co-parents.

And yes - me too! Exh shagging colleague (who was supposedly also my friend - ha!) who was significantly younger, when she fell pregnant as a result and he was told (few weeks after I'd kicked him out for said affair) he fell to pieces!

Tried to make her abort, tried to get ME to sympathise and persuade her to abort! Kept saying to anyone who would listen that the whole point of being with someone "young and fun" was NOT having the responsibility and grind that is having a family - they are now married (which he avoided for as long as possible - telling her it was ME dragging out the divorce when actually it was HIM sitting on paperwork - soon as I realised I gave her proof that wasn't the case) have 5 kids (I'm fairly certain eldest was due to her telling him she was on contraception when she wasn't BUT then more fool him for A shagging her in the first place and B not using a bloody condom - and so risking MY sexual health also), and I have it on pretty good authority BOTH are utterly miserable but won't split for a variety of reasons.

There have been points over the years where he's actually told me (and I've heard even told her) point blank that he regrets cheating and us splitting up, but what's done is done.

I think he would have been better off not being a father, he's not suited to it at all. Much discussion on this thread about women's decisions to have DC or not - what about mens choices? Nobody's forcing them to have DC, most of the deadbeats I know in real life and very often on here the children were very much planned, as was my dd and his youngest 4! Sometimes even fertility treatment is involved so fatherhood wasn't forced on them!

Maybe we should be asking why men who don't really want to be fathers are procreating.

continuallychargingmyphone · 29/07/2019 17:22

Grap - but I am not really talking about relationships.

People want families because they are, for all the worry, stress, lack of sleep and financial implications, it is very, very enjoyable. Or it is if you aren’t on MN Grin

Catsick36 · 29/07/2019 17:29

I can't. I'm dead inside. Mission accomplished children.