Hey I'm new to this and would like some advice please. I'm with my fiance over 4 years. At the start of our relationship everything was fine. Until I snooped through his phone after he went through mine..anyway I saw he was texting other girls. Being kind of flirty. And I pulled him on it. Ever since I pulled him on it he hasn't done it since. Anyway from that moment I never trusted him. Even though I never saw anything again since. But I cant stop snooping through his phone since. The whole time I do it. I dont see him texting other girls or anything but I see he deletes silly things from his friends. Like porn etc. I keep telling him the more he deletes things from me I will never trust him. But yet he still does it cause his excuse was if I saw it I would go "mad" and he wanted to avoid an argument. The other day I was snooping again and see he deleted messages to a friend. So I confronted him and asked him. He denied he deleted anything at first but then he came out and told me he did. He was talking to a female friend who is about to have a child..he was telling her intimate details about me for not being able to have kids and IVF etc. Again he said he deleted it cause if I saw he was discussing details about me I would go "mad". I literally have enough and the way he is I cant trust him. I keep asking myself what is he deleting again and is there more I'm unaware of. He knows it really bothers me as we had multiple arguments over it and I told him how i felt and how it's so untrustworthy. I dont delete anything from him so why is he doing it to me..i feel lost and i feel I'm wasting my time. Also he has kids from previous relationships too..I dont. He is older than me. I feel like I'm wasting my time..any advice would be great x