Has anyone got a degree in mental health nursing (or any other degree) and not used it?

[Welshcakes0]

Im almost finished studying a mental health nursing degree and I am not wanting to work as a mental health nurse when I finish. For many reasons, shifts (single parent with no childcare), working in mental health impacts on my own mental health, the responsibility, and the need to be in a job that makes me feel happy.
I have absolutely no confidence in myself and I don't think that is good for such a role. I know confidence comes with time and experience but I can assure you it's worse than ever. I thought it would get better but it hasn't. I now suffer with anxiety and I am even struggling to go back next week to finish my management placement of 12 weeks as they're going to expect so much from me. I'm not excited to qualify. I'm not excited about the potential job opportunities (as there are none that I would enjoy). The thought of not going back makes me feel happy but I have nothing else and a mortgage to pay. I wish i had never started this degree as the pressures to finish it is so high and my mental health has never suffered so bad as now. I wish it would all just go away :(

Oops, the update before last, but you seem to have this covered.

Blushingm thankyou :) congratulations. This thread helped me so much as I had absolutely nobody to talk to. Just typing here and reading all the kind, helpful and encouraging messages to me helped be. Not sure about you but I think this degree has zapped every emotion from my body. I'm nervous to start as a newly qualified. I can't bear to think there are more people out there like my current mentor. I felt like he was pushing me to my limits yesterday. He left me I charge, which is fine but he kept leaving the ward. So far I have managed it. Yesterday we had agency staff on who hadn't worked on the ward before. Lovely staff but I was ridiculously busy as they were not aware of the routines. The patients even noticed how much I was running around. There were people wanting to go out and their section was not appropriately placed. I was told people were not allowed out during therapies then when I tried to explain what I had been told he was shouting saying that's ridiculous 'no' then he was not understanding what I was saying so getting angry. The lifts were broke so I was collecting food meal by meal. Sorting finances. Plus everything else that you need to do to run the ward. My mentor went off to lunch as per usual (as he does at the same time no matter how busy or short staffed we are). I made sure everyone had a break. Then the fire alarm went off!! I didn't get a break. I did a few one to ones with patients as they were distressed. Then a knife was missing. My mentor flipped. Swearing. Throwing paperwork. One of the staff (agency) who had gone home had not signed the cutlery out. I knew they had left cutlery in the kitchen so I quickly removed that before my mentor saw. Another thing I had helped with is the lunches. I assumed that staff would know that procedure. My mentor was then asking if I had emailed the nurse re a patient. I had it stopped. Earlier in the day I had sorted post another job thrown in. He noticed 2 letters and again started swearing and shouting why hadn't this been done. I explained I had done most of the mail but hadn't stopped (he was off the ward for most of the shift). Anyway the knife was found another co-worker had taken it. He made a joke of it with her. I just said I was popping upstairs and left. I almost cried. I didn't because I will not allow him to make me.
Sorry so long - it was a hard day.
Awakeupnorth thankyou :)

pog100 thankyou :)