Christmas Eve and I'm so unhappy

[BahHumbugTime]

Is anyone else feeling miserable and lonely today? I am wallowing in my tears. Everywhere I look I see happy people and excited about Christmas. I just wish 2018 would end.

I'm in the process of divorcing my H and struggling to come to terms with it. I received decree nisi application in the post today. I feel dead inside.
I have 2 grown up DCs. I'll be with one of them tomorrow and the other on Boxing Day, which of course will be lovely.
I just can't pull myself together today.

I'm not the only one feeling like this, am I?
Will someone please give me a slap and tell me to pull myself together x

Yes, I'm pretty lonely myself. Family are thousands of miles away. :(

I think any kind of 'grieving' process you gotta go through it all to be able to get out of it. If you want to have a day like this, bloody do it, because ya know what, you're allowed to and actually for the first time probably you don't have anyone to tell you not to, so be in ur pjs all day, watch every single one of your fave films, eat and drink what you want and if you want to have a cry have a cry, its all part of the process. I bet the next two days you'll feel a million times better for getting it all out of your system and you can laugh about it (albeit to yourself... )
You seem self aware so as long as you know its not a permanent state to live in thats fine, but a healthy way to get through things is to feel it, dont bottle anything up x

Feeling lonely too, although in a different way.

DP works nights so is in bed. It's just me and DD(3). I feel like I'm stuck in Groundhog Day.

Family who live ages away are all getting together tonight...once DP goes to work and DD is in bed it'll just be me. Feels horrible.

Sorry to hear you're feeling down

pissedonatrain - That's crap. I hope you won't be alone tomorrow x

jackio - thank you. You are right. I may well get quietly sozzled today. x

@BahHumbugTime abso-bloody-lutely my friend! Tis the season n all that! X

I feel sad today. My husband walked out a few weeks ago, so it's our first Christmas post that, he's coming over in a bit and will stay til the morning but I don't think I can cope with it. If he tries to call the other woman again whilst here then I may actually stab him. Putting on my Christmas Eve face whilst pulling my stroppy fighting children apart, while my world sits in tatters - Merry Christmas?

You're definitely not alone. I'm going through a protracted divorce with three kids.

I expect to be down in the dumps at Christmas. The physical pain doing the shopping last week caught me by surprise.

It's shite. You have my sympathies. As PP suggested, quiet day to yourself. Take it easy today for an enjoyable tomorrow x

I'm following my own advice, and will again on Boxing Day when dcs are with their dad

@Getoffthetableplease if he wants to go, let him and lock the bloody door behind him! Dont be sad that an unloyal and cowardly person is walking away, be thankful that you don't have to try and make it work with someone you wouldn't have fallen in love with in the first place! Good riddens to bad rubbish i say!
I'm a child of divorced parents ( so forgive my brutality) just dont think theres point in flogging a dead horse, let em go and u can be with someone that a)you'd choose now and b)who would choose you now, a much better idea!
Yes its a bloody shame it didn't work out, of course it is, buuuuuuut, life muuuuuust go on, you were fine before him and I'm sure you'll be fine after him! X

Husband walked out on me 6 weeks ago (after 24 years) - surprise, surprise, he is cheating. I am worth more and am happily spending Xmas at home alone with my dog (one male I can trust!) and cats (cant face the social scene with my family who are fab, but its just too much pressure at the moment). Onwards and upwards in 2019 I say! Hope you manage to have a good time - its only a day after all - you will rise from this xxx

He has gone jackio, he went straight away. We're firmly separate, this is just one night because the children are desperate to have him here at Christmas. It bloody hurts.

Hello, I’m another one feeling low. I’m on my own after discovering my H was on hookup sites. Christmas just makes everything seem more painful.

First Christmas without my mum. ‘This too shall pass’ is my mantra.

My first Christmas as a single parent and I feel a bit meh 😢
I'm over the relationship but I just feel so alone, even though I have my kids with me.
Iv recently called off a FWB situation as I started to get feelings for him so I'm a bit sad over that too.
Roll on 2019

Can I join too? I have that horrid feeling in the pit of my stomach. Single parent from pregnancy, but recently had a relationship that’s broke down and I am just gutted. I think being with my ex showed me just how happy I could be, so now it’s back to being just me and Ds, I miss being part of a family - having someone to share stuff with. I never knew I missed it till I had it, if that makes sense? I want to goto church to pass the time for the christingle, but not sure I can hold it together and not fall apart once they start singing!

It is a difficult time of year. Early in 2018 I was attacked and sexually assaulted by a close friend and have been dealing with all the trial preparations etc for that, and the fallout it has had on me and my marriage with dh. It almost broke me and has been such a fucking crap year. Shortly after it happened I found out I was pregnant with surprise DC3 - due in Jan. It is bittersweet. Everything has felt like a battle in 2018.

Here's to a brighter and better 2019!

Yes. Pretty shit too.

I'm afraid of leaving for being on my own. The DCs will both be at university within the next two years.

Both DC are out this afternoon. DH is sapping any bit of happiness out of me so I'm out of the house sitting in a cafe which is closing in 15 mins.

I was determined not to let DH spoil my Christmas ( again). I was determined to keep smiling and rise above his miserable nature but it got to me this afternoon.

I don't remember what it's like to be happy in a relationship.

BahHumbugTime
Sorry to hear you feel like this.
Unwinding from a long partnership can take many months, years even.
Suddenly being on your own after being in a family was weird at times. Standing in a supermarket wondering what on earth I might want and not getting stuff for 'others'.
Enjoy the days with DC and take it easy afterwards.

It's so sad there are so many people feeling like this. In some ways it's almost a relief to know I'm not the only one.
Lets get through this 'festive' period together

Going to make a move home now
Love to all.
Will check in later.

Wow. Strong person @Purplecatshopaholic 👍🌟

It will get better. Can you excuse yourself and just go and wallow?

I think in reality many more people than ever before live alone & will be spending the day on their own tomorrow. Many people will be working and that means if they live away from family they can’t go home, so will spend their rest time alone.

Christmas’s marketing would have us think that everyone is with family, but the reality is steadily growing to be very different

I was in a similar place this time last year. This year I can’t believe the difference! It gets much better!

Xmas now always feels shit....used to live happy noisy family Xmas but now kids are grown up and gone, shopping and I split 4 years ago and new partner doesn't do Xmas or get the fuss. We are both working it anyway as emergency services. I'm on nights tonight and tomorrow.
Feels so empty and sad now compared to what it used to be. ☹️