Christmas Eve and I'm so unhappy

[BahHumbugTime]

Is anyone else feeling miserable and lonely today? I am wallowing in my tears. Everywhere I look I see happy people and excited about Christmas. I just wish 2018 would end.

I'm in the process of divorcing my H and struggling to come to terms with it. I received decree nisi application in the post today. I feel dead inside.
I have 2 grown up DCs. I'll be with one of them tomorrow and the other on Boxing Day, which of course will be lovely.
I just can't pull myself together today.

I'm not the only one feeling like this, am I?
Will someone please give me a slap and tell me to pull myself together x

Merry Christmas.

I’m going to be alone today. And the day after etc etc. So much going on right now. My partner is gone. Just buried a family member and I also buried a friend. It’s all a bit of a mess. Haven’t got any sleep. Too early for booze right?

maximumcarnage - a lot of us are alone today, and I personally find it helpful to know its not just me! I think BahHumbugTime right - lets all have a Happy Tuesday regardless. PS its always 5pm somewhere in the world.....

Well I do have enough booze to put an AA meeting into a coma. Also accumulated enough food to survive world war three. Though having been up virtually all night I may find myself sleeping through the day. Least try to. Ex’s BF keeps messaging me.

Normally not that bothered about being long term single but recently it has got harder as today is just exacerbating it. Live overseas so no family and a bit over putting a brave face on it

Thanks BahHumbug and everyone

I think it says a lot that quite a few of us have posted in the small hours. I'm just about to try for a bit more shut-eye having been awake since 4, as it'll be a long and testing day ahead. Support and solidarity to all who need it.

I have stxh downstairs on the sofa. He will be here for present opening and then off he will trundle, I expect to his new beau and her DD’s, not that I’d dare ask as wouldn’t want to seem remotely interested. Then he will be back tomorrow to collect our DC to do Christmas Day all over again with his family. Wonderful.
I’ve been awake for hours already. It feels unfair but I’m focusing on the fact my DC will have a lovely time with happy memories.

Can I join? I've had posts on other boards about my situation and am feeling rubbish. I know we'll all be okay but it's tough.

Dc like their presents that’s the main thing I wasn’t expecting much as he only went to get my presents at 5 pm yesterday despite me telling him everywhere would be shut so got some crap from Sainsbury’s as it was the only place open lol. So definitely putting a brave face on today he really is a thoughtless git

Kumali - it is tough, but we WILL be ok. I spent the early morning lying in bed with my dog and one of my cats (the two males I can rely on!!) and it was bloody brilliant! My soon-to-be-ex is a Fuckwit who is cheating - I am devastated but will get over it in time - his loss!

My mum was here 45 mins so now it’s just me and Ds again. BUT. He is singing to himself as he’s so happy! He loved his presents - the small stuff that he’d forgotten he’d mentioned, a book about youtubers, a bloody stretchy man thingy. I’m thrilled he’s so happy.

My first Christmas as a single parent to 2, ex met someone 2 weeks after we split, that was 4 months ago and I'm getting there :)
I allowed to round this morning to watch the kids open their presents and all was going ok until he took a call from his new GF right in front of me, and instead of keeping it brief he started asking her questions about how her kids enjoyed it etc, I just glowed at him and said take it outside, which he did and then came back inside and gave me shit, I said if he carries on he will need to leave as it's my house and it's Christmas, he left shortly after but bloody hell can he not show me a bit more respect grrrr, anyway that's out of the way now she I can enjoy the rest of Christmas with family :)
Merry Christmas everyone x

Well I'm getting through the day. Enjoying my son being here of course, but it's difficult getting the festive feeling going.
To add reality to the day, my newly adopted rescue dog just did a huge crap on the hall carpet. Ho ho ho

How did everyone’s day go after all? I had a little cry in the bath at his lack of effort for Christmas presents when i had done everything and the fact we aren’t speaking except in front of the kids. Went to my mil for dinner for the first time and had a lovely afternoon so it wasn’t all bad. Got home mid evening he watched telly in bed and then went to bed without saying anything to anyone so I have put dc to bed and I take it I will be the one getting up to take dd to work tomorrow morning pfft

My day was ok. Which is about all that can be said for it! Worked, had some leftovers a a friends and then went to bed early because I am ill! Today is not shaping up any better but I feel marginally happier that Christmas is done

Well it's over! My boys will be off to stay with the bastard ex tonight so the tree will be down and all signs of Christmas gone in a few hours. Hoping the first one will have been the hardest. Hope you're all okay

My day was ok but we were with family albeit with in laws so other people to interact with. Didn't have to talk to him. The occasional snide comment from him when chocolates were being passed round ( he has a thing about my weight ).

Our turn to entertain today. Keeping my head down and going to get on with preparing food. At times
Like this he likes to ' take over ' and be in control. It's a joke really as he's done fuck all for sorting Christmas out.