I've been seeing someone for five months who I adore. We get on so well and the sex is the best I've ever had. He has always stopped things moving forwards and I finally talked to him about this. He says he isn't in the right frame of mind for a relationship for the next few months (he does has a lot going on in his personal life to sort).
I've walked away a couple of times and he always comes chasing full on and I start to think that things are changing and go back.
I love seeing him and know that I want to give things between us a go if there is any possibility of it working as I feel so strongly for him. I've tried dates with others before him and never got the same butterflies or connection.
I'm now in a situation where I'm spending time with him but I'm giving him space to sort himself. I don't know if he will be open to a relationship in the future with me or if its just his way of keeping me around.
I met up with a blind date this week for a meal, I wasn't sure but decided I had to widen my life a little. On paper he is great and I do like him very much but he doesn't make me feel excited /give me butterflies, noone does that like the man I can't have. I look at him and just want to rip his clothes off. I feel incredibly guilty for even going on a walk as if I'm cheating. Blind date man seems genuinely keen and I know I should give him a chance but I'm so scared at losing the chance of a relationship with the man i love.