NC Dignity Club part 8: still wearing our crowns

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Hopefully nobody else has started a thread, if so feel free to ignore this one

I'm not sure Bloody
Suppose I have to ask, but thanks for an idea
Bassetting
I told my NC before tgat one of his text made me cry..nothing came out of it , he basically distanced himself even more but then what could he say? How can he make it better

Hi ladies.. Work has been crazy... And been out to dinner with a girlfriend but just wanted to check in. I am really tired so I'll catch up properly tomorrow... Heard nothing back from NC today after the messages yesterday...

Tomorrow is Friday which is my hardest day... Sending lots of love and strength.... Xxx

I messed up, I just sent a text to my NC Why do we do this to ourselves, please remind me how shitty it feels when I want to do it again. I'm pissed with myself now, I don't want to behave this way

At least it's still Thursday curraghgold - you can start tomorrow/today actually as Day 1 !

I nearly passed out this evening - watching Eastenders and there was an exact phrase that NC uses frequently at the same time as the jukebox in the Queen Vic was playing a very special song to us . Sometimes I think these things are just sent to make us demented .

It's now Day 28 for me ......

That is so strange Bloody!!

Oprah Winfrey Quotes. Think like a queen. A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another steppingstone to greatness.

Whether you feel you have messed up by giving in or not they are all steps. Tomorrow is a new day. Don't carry your regret over till tomorrow. Going NC is hard enough without the added pressure we put on ourselves. Sorry not very talkative tonight. If I start I won't stop. Have over-thought and stalked all day.

teens if your DS decides to go ahead with General, good luck for tomorrow.

Welcome to newbies!

Morning everyone... Happy Friday! @Bloody congratulations on day 28... That is absolutely awesome!! You should celebrate hitting 30 days on Sunday. @teens hope your DS op goes well... Is it today? I was so knackered yesterday that I really need to catch up with everyone. @basseting @anxious @nk @ravens how are you my lovelies? @oldbrook I did see that you had bumped into NC...! Has that stirred up more feelings?

Bloody that is brilliant, well done you. That kinda happened to me, after we split up I got in the car and our song was playing on the radio.

Anxious thanks, I knew I'd regret it, but don't feel too bad this morning, I just know I'll be waiting for my phone to ping again today and I don't want to live like that! At least it's Friday

Morning from Switzerland! Day 15 NC! Had a wobble at the airport - NC travelled a lot and we’d always text when one of us was flying (mostly him). But I didn’t.
Have a good day everyone! Welcome to the new people.
My story - got dumped by boyfriend, am NC to get over him/get him back (currently still hoping he’ll miss me). So I will contact him after at least 30 days NC but when he tells me it’s still over I’ll have to start NC for real again

Morning all. Happy Friday!!!

Bloody well done on Day 28! Weird about the phrase. Maybe it's a sign to tell you how well you're doing.

Teens hope the op goes well for your son today

Anxious how are you today?

Curragh we've all texted when we didn't want to. I find coming on here great to vent instead of messaging.

Seshi how's the car going?

Oldbrook how was your day?

Love Fridays so I'm going to try and remain so positive today

Oh lovely Ravens hope you have a brilliant time in Switzerland!

@nk I live the car thank you! @oldbrook that's amazing that you were OK with it. You have obviously come a long way. I am waiting to see if NC comes back to me from my last message. It hasn't been delivered yet which always makes me anxious as I think he blocked me. I think this proves just how much healthier it is to be NC.... I am waiting to see if he turns up to this gig on the 23rd.. Considering how far we have come it's only two weeks... Then it will either be back together or NC forever. I need to keep busy tonight. May go to the gym after work then cook something nice. I have plans tomorrow but I am still hoping that after contact this week he may come over... I AM SO DELUDED!!!!!

ravens enjoy Switzerland . Yes it is familiar or usual situations that can "do us in" - I have that too . When you were immersed in each other's routine then you go to nothing . Day 15 is great ! Well done.

NK that's a good way of looking at it - I used to try to do that when I was seeing him .Reverse positivity . Used to struggle with not knowing when I would see him again and used to turn " 2 days from seeing him " to "2 days nearer to seeing him again " ....ah now recalling all that shit too......

oldbrook the body language - yes we know these NC's walk and mannerisms and facial expressions so well . It is almost like they draw us to them in public .

anxious me too - struggled yesterday and felt unable to post much

teens good luck with son's op today

Hallo everyone else ..am sure I will be on here this evening .

seshi you must be being driven insane by waiting about that message !

oldbrook you have said that before . I feel that too but think it is just our mind's sadly.

Technology definitely makes things 100 times harder!

Morning ladies
Bloody that’s amazing well done you 🏆
squiggle glad I’m not the only one! Luckily I don’t have Facebook so that’s one less place to check!!!

Morning( Friday evening here I hate the weekends to much thinking time) ladies hope you all have a good day. Still struggling to be fair but i haven't contacted NC. Anybody else think hope is soul destroying? The hope the NC will contact you before you break and do it first. It seems fate/life is just mocking me atm. NC is a driver for a trucking company and this last week i've seen two trucks from his company on the road. Feels like a kick in the stomach like some odd reminder he's still around like hell he is though. If he gave a shit he'd contact me. Sorry for the pity party just can't help it. Need a slap to the head or a good shake. Any advice ladies?

Morning, gang! how are we all today???

Teens thinking of you and your ds today and hope all goes well.x

ravens Switzerland sounds beautiful. hope you get to see/enjoy it!

seshi I can hear the hope in your heart my sweetie! I hope things go the way you want.x

OldBrook off to look at another of your helpful and interesting links, thank you. I know what you mean about feeling that 'the story isnt over'

anxious great quotes! :)

NK how are you today?

Oldbrook i'm in Australia.

yesterday.
i woke up weirded out by having had a sex dream about MF not DOM!
tried to rationalise it by hoping that was progress? but obv MF no good.
worried also that i have some sort of Pavlovian sex response to any man who is kind to me (quite poss after highly abusive background)

Then I had emailed MF about the upcoming v big Op. Said I was scared and stressed about finishing my book in time for him to read.

(MF and i were g/f and b/f in my 6th form. Both from v unhappy homes (his upper middle mine working class) He went to Uni, i didnt (then) I wanted to move to his Uni town, his parents threatened to cut him off, he said no, i moved to big city and got into a world of trouble. I found him on f/b last autumn and we have caught up, he has done well, married 2 kids 10 yrs older. we met (at the museum!) for lunch and it was really nice. He said how sorry he was about everything, how he knew things were bad at my home but not how bad, he'd like to read my autobiog when it is ready. I have sent 2 chapters which apparantly really upset him. meantime he says his wife is twitchy about me so no more msngr just emails. fine by me)

So his reply to my email is: 'see the drama llama is alive and well'.
I replied: 'ouch, actually I am really scared (Op will be a 5 day job) and this book is my only voice it matters to me. i have trusted you'
Reply is: 'didnt you trust me then? I wanted to marry you but you went away, i dont have that commitment now but you will share your life story' i am sorry i was flippant, i know what this means to you'.

WTF?