Hi, I’m so confused and would appreciate some advice. I separated from my husband 2 years ago but we are still in contact because we have children. After we parted he discovered his social life again and I met a lovely man who was the opposite of my husband. Our feelings developed really quickly, just seemed to have a connection and he made me really happy. My ex made a few digs about how my boyfriend looked ( he isn’t classically handsome) but my husband is. I didn’t rise to any of this as looks really aren’t important to me if I feel deeper for the person. The problem is I started to feel guilty about spending time with my boyfriend and tortured myself about it as it was my decision to leave my marriage. I started thinking that I was out of order on the kids,although they get on with my boyfriend very well. My husband is well known in our hometown and I suspect he told people I left him for bf although that is not true. I started to make excuses not to be seen with him in public for fear of what other people thought. My bf is a lovely man who thinks the world of me, I’m also prone to feeling anxious yet when I’m with him I feel calm. ( my husband always got annoyed when I felt anxious) Unfortunately, I told him it was over and he is heartbroken and I’m really unhappy. I want to be with him but feel people are judging me. I’m 42 years old and so bloody angry that I care what people think at the risk of my own happiness. My kids are my priority but I do feel like I deserve happiness too. I know if I get back with my bf it will just cause grief with my husband as deep down I think he is hoping for another chance but I can’t go back. Please tell me straight - what would you do?