Battling on!

[lollipop7]

So I'm starting a new thread following on from 0I don't know what to do" as we're almost full.
Blimey! How did that happen!

Seems lots of you are rather ruddy marvellous and want to keep going on this journey with me so I'm opening a new chapter.
Will be back with a proper update later 💐

That's why you get power of arrest attached to the court order especially in the case of contact (for non return of the DC) and ongoing harassment. It doesn't happen automatically you have to apply/ask for it otherwise the police are powerless and you just have to go back to court!!!

I will ask my solicitor about power of arrest if he gets more contact

So fucking sick of everything

Still here cheering you on !

me too!!!

And me!

Me three!

And me!

I know it's hard. I am in awe of you.

Me too! I don’t post a lot, but I do think of you every day lollipop. Not much practical help i know, but you’ve got a lot of us at your back.

Me too!

Thanks, this means a lot to me.

It's a bitter pill to swallow when my happiness and my children's welfare is more important to strangers - albeit very kind and lovely ones - than their father; the man I thought would always love us, cherish us and protect us.

I feel grief stricken again tonight with it all. It's difficult for me to really believe i'm a strong person because I feel anything but. I feel stupid, used up and like I can't even protect my children; that it's a losing battle. Despondency, no hopelessness, sets in so easily. Lack of sleep and a three week old baby doesn't help I know. I know I need to keep going and I will. I have to. But I don't know how to do it for ever if nothing ever goes in our favour. Head is full of what ifs tonight.

Long, lonely, bumpy road ahead of me and my little ones. I hope I can do it.

You can do it lollipop 💐. You are amazing and have come such a long way. I don’t post often either but think of you every day. Xx

You have shown amazing courage in the face of extreme adversity. You will find the strength to carry on for your children , they are your motivation. Be kind to yourself .

Whatever happens you will know that you did everything you can. You are stronger than you think but if you feel like it is all too much please speak to your mw or hv or gp.

We all know how difficult a nb is. Especially with 2 other little ones and that useless wankerbastard on top. Please don't struggle on if you need a bit of help xx

you can do this ... look how far you have come.... your beautiful Baby is here too now....

have you managed to Register his birth yet

I'm another who is always behind you. You can do this, in fact, you are doing it!

KOKO lollipop! I’m another one who doesn’t post loads on here but I check in every day to see if you’re ok (and hoping the bastard has disappeared off the face of the earth).
You don’t realise just how strong you are but we can all see it.
Go girl

Thinking of you this morning Lollipop. I was walking along the beach with my dogs and remembering a time when I was in a similar situation as yourself and how all-consuming it is.

If there is anything I can do support or advice wise (non legal obviously) please pm me.

You are right - it's going to be a long hard road ahead of you.
But you will get there.
And you will be protecting yourself and your DC.
You might not feel strong at times but you are doing so well.
Keep going.
I'm still here cheering you on as well.

Another who watches for your thread and keeps you in my thoughts. Glad the new lawyer seems to be on the ball. Lollipop you are an incredibly strong, warrior, courageous vibrant woman who has achieved so much against the odds for your children.

Lollypop everything that has happened to you is dreadfully unfair. Life with a newborn is both tough and cherished. Again, unfair that you are not enjoying your newborn as you should with so much weight on your shoulders. This is all his fault and you feeling this way is what he wants. Pure selfishness.

I wish it was as easy as putting all your stresses in a box and locking it away to let whatever will be will be. I think of you every day and hope one day soon you will be at peace as a happy little family.

You're all so thoughtful and it makes me feel less alone reading these messages. They are keeping me going, they really are.

Adjournment application with the court but I'm not holding out any hope. This time next week I will have been in court I suspect. Will just have to meet him head on and hope against hope.
He isn't taking my precious babies anywhere.

I know you don’t think it but you are doing amazing x

Went to register the baby's birth today.
The office was full of happy couples and their babies. I walked past the room we had planned to use for our wedding three years ago. I sat in the room on my own and signed the certificate with no fathers details on.

Left and sat in my car feeling too hollowed out to even cry.

Just another reminder of the devastation he has wrought on all my hopes and dreams. I should be used to it by now but it hurts more than ever.