Math "maybe you are unaware of the effect the discovery of infidelity has on a betrayed spouse?" I have not experienced it but I can imagine it is terrible.
I think I still can have an opinion on this matter even if I have not experienced it.
I am very sympathetic to anyone who has had this happen to them But the OP is the person who has had the affair and we are supposed to be supporting her, and I don't think encouraging her to go into lots of sexual details about something that happened 7 years ago is healthy. The whole relationship sounds very unhealthy and my personal advice is for the OP to do whatever is right for her.
I said initially something like tell him things if she wants to. But I can't see the point in her tearing herself apart over this when it seems like her husband doesn't really want to forgive her and move on.
If he can't forgive her after all these years I think she deserves to be happy.
"KC11 asks for forgiveness without telling the H what he is forgiving her for." I think she has been quite clear about what happened, they had a five week sexual affair. I am sure that is incredibly painful but I am not sure what information she could give him to make that better.
"It is a gesture of good faith, a deposit into the relationship bank." I disagree, I think he is twisting the knife - making her pay - forgive her, don't forgive her, its his choice. She doesn't need to tell him sexual details.
He is the victim of her cheating, it seems to me that she is the victim of his horrible behaviour. This is not necessarily true for all couples where affairs have happened. Every situation is different. Or at least, some situations are different.
For those who have experienced an affair I am sure this is all very painful to read but this is not about the reader it is about the OP.
You make a lot of assumptions, Math and project a lot of things onto this. That's totally your right to do. But I don't think that anyone who cheats should be forced to give a blow by blow of their sexual activities. I'd be quite surprised if people can remember it. And if they make a mistake and forget something does that give their spouse the right to say they held something back?
The OP can tell her husband all she wants, go into any details she wants, I think if she doesn't want to do that, I support her, and if her marriage is over, maybe this will be best for them both.
I am sorry for Math, SummerflowerXx and all who have been a spouse cheated on. I've never cheated on my dh. I think any kind of cheating is deeply hurful and wrong.
expect I would be devastated if my dh cheated on me. But i think SummerflowerXx has it right that the couple need to work out if they can move forward together or not. But we cannot force someone to be faithful.
If you are so sure Math that OP is keeping herself to herself in some way and it is sign of the fact she will cheat again then why has she not cheated so far again since this affair?
Maybe one size does not fit all.
Yes, details like 'who else knew' are significant, yes, I can see that a person would want to know. I can see how their view of the world may be turned upside down.
But sexual details, no, that's not something anyone should have to discuss and to ask for it seems like a method of control IMHO.
I fully recognize not everyone will agree but my only concern is the OP and not her husband as he is not positing for support.
certificateofauthenticity I think that letter is really horrible. I don't think anyone can just take that letter and apply it to a situation "It doesn’t come from jealousy, it doesn’t come from spitefulness, and it doesn’t come from a desire to make you suffer. It comes from the fact that I love you."
To use the letters own words... "But how can I know that? Faith? Because you told me so?"
How do we know the person writing the letter really loves his partner and is not demanding every little detail out of spite? And even if the writer is totally honest, it doesn't mean that letter can be applied to all.