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Is it me? I'm on the edge...

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troubleinparadise · 01/07/2017 23:33

NC for this but don't often post.

Basic background: been married three months, have two kids between us (one each from previous relationships, I am 9 weeks pregnant.

Please give me some advice on whether I am being over sensitive and unreasonable or whether my 'd'h is just a horrible arsehole.

Since we got married I feel like he's just not stopped having a go at me. For anything and everything but off the top of my head: I'm working too hard/too late yet don't earn enough money (I'm a teacher);
I need to make more effort with losing weight. I lost a couple of stone before the wedding with slimming world (still not slim! Size16-18) and when I found out I was pregnant I said to him that I would try to keep it up so I don't put it all back on. However, I am really struggling with morning (all day) sickness so just been eating simple bits and pieces (some unhealthy- I hold my hands up) while I don't fancy our usual slimming world recipes. He is very much put out by my lack of cooking so having to fend for himself too! Anyway, I went to SW (with him, he wants to lose a few pounds too) and maintained my weight and said I was happy with that for the time being. He went mad at me saying I should be at least trying and shouldn't be so defeatist. I was really upset about this and pointed out how hard it is in the first trimester when you feel rotten and he told me I was just using it as an excuse! Also when I pointed out how I was two stone heavier when he met me he said it didn't matter then because we got on like a house on fire then Sad

Other hurtful thing: I had a really bad breakout on my chin a couple of weeks ago and went to the doctors- he gave me some antibiotics and steroid cream and arranged for a blood test for me. It has cleared up mainly but there are still lingering spots that keep appearing and last night he kissed me on the cheek and made a face pointing at my chin saying he didn't want to kiss me in case he caught something from me. Now I do realise that spots aren't particularly attractive but it really hurt me and I got upset which he was the annoyed by. Now I'm so paranoid about my face and feeling terrible that earlier that evening I went to visit my best friend and her baby and was kissing the baby and thinking about whether I shouldn't have kissed him and whether my friend was thinking "eww, get off my baby" Sad

Sorry, I know this is long.

Last thing I want to mention: he loses his temper easily - mainly if I ask him to do something or he has to pay for something. Today lost his temper with me for "starting an argument" when all I'd done I'd ask whether he had two car seats in his car for the kids then got annoyed with his sarcastic response. Following this, he proceeded to not speak to me all day - we went out for lunch and to the cinema with the kids. Including when I was dry heaving in the car - ignored me and later when he knew I was throwing up- ignored me. Is it really too much to expect him to come and see if I'm okay? When I called him out on it, his response was, "what can I do?" Hmm

Sorry again for length!
Do be honest!

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NSEA · 01/07/2017 23:37

Why fo we need to be honest? You detailed really awful behaviour here from someone who is meant to make you feel special and happy. Who is going to be a role model for your unborn child.

What do you think strangers being honest will change?

Queenofthedrivensnow · 01/07/2017 23:37

Being honest he sounds really immature. What was he like before you got married?

MrsBertBibby · 01/07/2017 23:38

He sounds like an absolute wanker to me.

34AQuid · 01/07/2017 23:45

I find his behaviour alarming. You are newlyweds, you're pregnant, there are children involved...and he sounds like a nasty bully who is amping up the shit behaviour at a time when you are particularly vulnerable. Thats really worrying. A good man would not be trying to unsettle you and damage your self esteem at any time, but especially not when you are expecting his child.

Castigating you for your work, your weight, your looks? He sounds like a bastard.

What do you think? Are you having second thoughts about him?

troubleinparadise · 01/07/2017 23:52

Yes, I am absolutely having second thoughts about him. Just cannot believe how mean he has been and like you said, at a time when I really need/want/expect his love and support. Just feel like taking my babies and going it alone would be better than this. However, can I do that after three months of marriage? Would I be crazy and giving up too easily?

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troubleinparadise · 01/07/2017 23:52

Thank you for responses by the way!

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AvaCrowder2 · 02/07/2017 00:00

I think the sanest thing you could do would to make a home for your two dc and think about why you were with such a horrid man.

Flowers

What a horrible situation,don't stay in it.

RedastheRose · 02/07/2017 00:01

I think you have to tell him you've had enough. Living with constant criticism and emotional abuse is awful, stressful and very bad for the baby. Can you have an honest conversation with him about how he us making you feel and give him an ultimatum to pack it in or leave? If you fear having an honest conversation about this due to his likely reaction then that should tell you that you need to end it anyway!

Cricrichan · 02/07/2017 00:04

Tell him to fuck off out of your life. What an absolute bullying piece of shit.

TeachesOfPeaches · 02/07/2017 00:10

Have you not been together long OP?

Hermonie2016 · 02/07/2017 00:11

How long have you been together?

I think we can all relate to someone being stressed out and maybe snappy but he seems to lack compassion or kindness for you.

What would happen if you tried to talk to him?

I'm hoping he's a good guy but all signs pointing to him being abusive.Its horrible for you and the children must be picking up on the moods.
Sadly it's all too common for this behaviour to start once the man feels more secure, typically when there is a commitment such as marriage or baby.

MumIsRunningAMarathon · 02/07/2017 00:11

What's he like with your child op?

pinkyredrose · 02/07/2017 00:14

He sounds awful! Sorry no practical advice other than kick him to the curb.

Hawkmoth · 02/07/2017 00:14

Run.

RubyBluesey · 02/07/2017 00:17

so why did you marry him......

anothernew · 02/07/2017 00:17

Just go. He won't change. You, nor your babies, deserve this. Go!

troubleinparadise · 02/07/2017 00:42

Been together 3 years. Has crept in very slowly but seems to have really upped recently. Or perhaps I just feel more sensitive?

He can be lovely (obviously, I'm not completely insane) and everyone I know loves him as he is very funny and charming.

I have spoken to him a few times now and he just won't see it. Will instead turn things back on me and go on and on about it never being my fault and I won't accept blame or apologise. I firmly believe it is very seldom me to blame and on an occasion when I do "start" something, his reaction is so over the top horrible and cutting that it makes me very unwilling to apologise for whatever it was in the first place. I accept that this may be wrong of me and perhaps I should be the bigger person but I'm then just so cross with his reaction.

He is good with my child generally and she really likes him. There is a bit of tension at times because he has had a lot of trouble with his dd who can be quite hard work and misbehaves a lot and (this will sound terrible!) my dd is really well behaved. I feel like at times he has been resentful of my dd because she is so easy going when he struggles with his. If I'm really honest, there are so many problems with his parenting of his dd that I'm not surprised she misbehaves. He has little patience and really shouts at her sometimes which I hate but have been told she's not my child so I have no say in how he parents her and if I do try to give him any advice he just sees it as criticism and is mean about how "perfect" I must be and how my child can do no wrong...

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AvaCrowder2 · 02/07/2017 01:00

How will you feel if he shouts at your new baby together?

He sounds dreadful.

Moanyoldcow · 02/07/2017 01:03

He is nasty and you should get away from him before he destroys you.

I don't say this lightly but I'd seriously consider terminating the pregnancy and getting away from him.

That baby will tie you to him forever. I'm seeing the aftermath of a similar relationship ending and it's fucking hell.

Iflyaway · 02/07/2017 01:21

have been told she's not my child so I have no say in how he parents her

How the hell is that going to work in a blended family?!

Sorry OP, he sounds awful and very abusive. So sorry you are in this mess.

I was in an abusive marriage. Thank God I got out. I will NEVER let anyone treat me like shit again!

ThatsNotMyMarmot · 02/07/2017 07:05

Please listen to Iflyaway and the others. His behaviour is the opposite of what it should be currently. Leave ASAP and this will then feel like a blip only in your life. I too would consider termination too I'm afraid. You and your DD are far too good for him. Make a clean break this way and get the ball rolling with a solicitor. A normal DH would be supporting you right now. I've been laid up for seven months waiting for surgery and have put a bit of weight on. I've mentioned to DH about my shape and he said I could be any shape, even a stellated dodecahedron and he would still love me. That is what a committed DH is like. It took me a while to find him but I consider his response to be normal. You're carrying his child FFS. If he's like this now the future doesn't bear thinking about.

theboud · 02/07/2017 07:22

Triggers for domestic abuse 'stepping up' include getting married, moving in together and pregnancy.

You have noticed the changes early on and now you have an opportunity to get out before he escalates his behaviour. I am so sorry you're going through this.

mylittlepony6 · 02/07/2017 07:30

Sorry OP, his behaviour sounds awful. I agree with a pp who said try sitting down and explaining all of these things to him. Also, you could try counselling. An impartial person listening to this may make him realise how abusive he is being.

MadeForThis · 02/07/2017 07:39

His behaviour is dreadful.

He should be there for you while you are pregnant instead of trying to pull you down.

All day sickness is very hard to cope with and eating often is the best way to deal with it. Pregnancy is no time for a strict diet. Just look after yourself.

Could he be jealous of the new pregnancy? Threatened that it will take attention away from him?

troubleinparadise · 02/07/2017 07:48

I have suggested counselling and he has agreed to that but from what he says he only wants to go so that somebody impartial will tell me it's my fault too and force me to apologise to him more. I told him that it doesn't really work like that and I don't think they would give an opinion or be on a 'side'. I feel like he is just obsessed with proving me wrong that everything else (like being happy) goes out of the window...

He confessed to me a few weeks ago that he thought he had a mental health problem- borderline personality disorder- diagnosed by google and promised to go to the GP and get some help but this hasn't happened. Also, my parents came over for dinner recently and my dad made a joke about how my mum always has to be right and never apologises (was genuinely a joke- they have the happiest marriage I have ever known) and since then he's latched on to that saying how now it all makes sense and how I must get it from her.

I am tempted to show him this thread to shock him into seeing how bad things are but I fear he will just say how it's only offering a one-sided view of the situation.

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