Back in court soon to renew non mol order. It seems to have brought things back. I knew I wasn't better, I still have nightmares most nights, broken sleep and stupid things bring me up short during the day. Generally though, I thought I was getting more control. Today, all day, I've seen him everywhere. Not really there, just re-living in my head, all of a sudden I'm just there, in a different time and place with him telling me off, or storming away, or whatever. I've spent half the day in tears and hyper-ventilating. Tell me it'll go. Please. Need to be strong for very fragile dd.
Thank you.