That first is a killer, easier to have none than one...
Big 50th party this weekend, but 50 miles away so easy to justify driving, oddly no one argues with the designated driver concept!
No need to worry about the morning after, or ashamed to admit the night before... not the first time been drinking and trying to figure out when/if sober enough to drive.... and knowingly getting in the car, because it fed the lies and aided the deception.... couldn't cancel plans as would reveal the problem, so recklessly carry on..... never admitted that one to anyone, it doesn't get much worse.... but I'm working to ensure it won't happen again, I can't look back only forward.
Part of me wants the liver test to come back problematic, not catastrophically but enough to hide behind... I should be careful what I wish for!!!
Onwards team...