marfisa - What finally made you determined to stop drinking, if you don't mind me asking?
Gosh, I'm not sure exactly. A couple of moments stand out in my mind though. One was at the end of the university year when I was tidying up my office (I'm an academic) and I was opening all the drawers and cupboards in my office and they were all full of empty wine and vodka bottles. It was a moment when I thought to myself, 'This is no way to live.' Just seeing all the hidden bottles was a powerful visual symbol of my alcoholism. :( Another incident that happened about the same time was that we were having friends round for dinner and I was so drunk that I had retired to bed by the time they arrived, so my DH had to host on his own. This had actually happened before and he usually told people that I was sick. This time for some reason he was fed up and told them the truth. When I learned this the following day, I was mortified. The friends didn't seem to mind, they thought it was kind of amusing, but I felt so exposed. Alcoholism thrives on secrecy and denial, and looking back my DH did a good thing by refusing to collaborate with the secrecy. It was unusual for him as he's someone who worries a lot about what people will think.
Those incidents got me to my first AA meeting and that was the start of my journey to sobriety. I didn't expect AA to work because I had tried to stop drinking on my own many times and it had never worked. But all the different aspects of the programme the 'one day at a time' mantra, the meetings full of people who had stopped drinking and seemed really damn happy to be sober (!), having a sponsor, doing the 12 steps all those things helped me stop drinking, and eventually, stay stopped. I'm still kind of amazed that it's worked. But I still go to about three meetings a week and I take my recovery very seriously. I don't go to meetings because I still crave alcohol (most of the time now I don't crave it); I go because the meetings calm my anxiety and help me deal with all the psychological issues that made me a problem drinker in the first place.
About what is 'enough' to make someone stop drinking, I would say that's an unanswerable question. I've seen people come into AA and get sober because of an incident even more minor than my two 'lightbulb moments' that I described above. I've also seen people who have lost their jobs and their kids due to drink and even those things don't seem to constitute enough of a wake-up call to make them want to stop drinking. :( The main thing I would say about your DH is that he will only stop when HE wants to stop. Try to let go of the idea that anything you can do or not do (even kicking him out!) can make him drink or not drink. Kicking him out is 100% the right thing to do, because you're refusing to 'enable' his drinking any more, but he's an alcoholic: he might choose to carry on drinking anyway even if you're not enabling him. :( But it should be crystal clear that it's HIS responsibility: 'you can't live with us because you're choosing to drink.' And when you said above, for instance, that supervised contact would be detrimental to his relationship with his DC, I would reword that and say that HIS DRINKING means that he needs to have supervised contact with his DC. HE is harming his relationship with his DC. Not you and not the fact of supervised contact in itself.
I hope this makes sense. And I really hope for your sake that this will be a wake up call for him. Alcoholics can and do get better! But regardless of what happens to him, you and your DC will be so much better off now that you've made this choice. xx