DH has me worried

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I am a regular but NC as I don't want this linked.

I'm not sure if this is in the right place but I'm slightly freaked out at the moment.

DH and myself were watching tv and were kissing, I told him I don't want sex and he said ok. Carried on kissing (you know that way that's leading up to it) so I stopped and decided to go chill out in bed as I'm up early.

He followed me and kissed me again, pinning me against the wall and groping me. I moved his hands away several times and told him I'm going. I moved away from him and headed towards the bedroom.

Then he followed me into the hall and was more aggressive. Kissing me, aggressively almost, groping me and trying to pull my trousers down slightly with one hand and other hand was near my neck. I pushed his hand away (where he was at my trousers) and he pushed me back till we bumped into a cupboard. And he moved his other hand to my throat a little tight whilst whispering what he wanted and rubbing the outside of my trousers.

I tried to push him away but he's a lot stronger/bigger than me. I feigned hearing DD so I bent to pick my bag up and he tried to pull my trousers down at the back. I grabbed bag and went to bedroom. (I co sleep with DD and DH sleeps in separate room).

Feel a bit odd to be honest. That's not like him but his behaviour has made me nervous.

Don't know why im posting really.

She didn't say that he had choked her though.

Didn't she?

And he moved his other hand to my throat a little tight

Oh god this is awful OP, He knows your past history, your helplessness as a child in the face of sexual assualt. And that turns him on! There is no other explanation for the hard-on when you explained how he made you feel.

Coupled with the choking, the minimising, the tears (for himself) and constant badgering for sex, even after he's done this - there is no way back.

Oh and the 'I can't help it, you turn me on so much', 'you make me so horny', 'you are so sexy I can't keep my hands off you' - is NOT A COMPLIMENT! It's more co-ercing, more badgering, more control.

Def get him to leave, at least for a few days.

I believe you

I wish you could see how very wrong this all is. I wish you could see it from the outside perspective and see what will happen from here if you don't get out. We can all see it, I just wish you could.

I hope you find the strength to leave. I really do. No one deserves to live like this. There is no excuse, ever. It's not good enough op and I am deeply worried for you.

I believe you. I froze when I experienced sexual assault.

Please stay safe and keep us posted. We support you and will help you.

Sorry :(

I believe you. I know it's not as easy to end a relationship as a parent but this place will be here for you. There are many who are on the other side of this.

I guess it is horribly distressing to realise you don't know who the man you married is.

You don't need to apologise to anyone here, op.