Brave Babes...braving the Autumn

[Mrsmimsy]

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Good afternoon, tis me, Mouse

I know I've not been here much, at all in fact on this thread! Some of you won't of even heard of this cheddar addict!

I'm not sure where to start......

I'm a wee poorly Mouse, with various ailments including -

Fibromyalgia
Borderline Personality Disorder
Osteoporosis in my lower spine
Degenerative Disc Disease
A Bakers Cyst in the back of my left knee
Tietze's Syndrome / Costochondritis - (google it, but my GP confirmed this anyway)
Facet Joint Syndrome
Endometriosis
Oh, and PTSD just for sbits and giggles :(

My plan is to talk openly here about my battle with booze and my use of pain meds v's alcohol if that's okay?

Each day is different. I've tried so many times to just breathe after being sectioned, after being so ill....... Fighting to stay alive each day, each minute, has been utter hell on Earth because I've been so ill. As has my darling Nemo........

DD is considering Uni but I'm lost with it all :(

Life sucks!

How are you all during this "festive" few days?

I've so missed you guys xxx xxx xxx xxx

Just saying hi mouse don't know of u, but welcome back. X I'm choco got two young dc whist trying to sort out my dp.
I'm trying to sort alchohol out with moderation As I don't drink through the week just go mad at weekends. Had a couple of drinks now but feel ok. X

Hi kateshair and welcome!

Joey well done for making it clear you weren’t joking, see if his behaviour changes but he can’t say he hasn’t been warned if he doesn’t make good his promise

Dubh your poor pup, I hope for a speedy recovery!

Elba that sounds like a lovely idea, starting the new year as a lovely, shiny and hangover free you

Sweet oh bless his sweet little heart! They are so cute, mine has a habit of being very naughty then giving me a look that makes my heart melt (am as soft as butter!), they’re like babies/toddlers aren’t they? Only twice as fast, easier to house/potty train though!

Hello Mouse I’ve missed you it’s completely ok to talk about pain meds and alcohol on here I think . Aww you poor thing, you have a lot to deal with and I think you’re a star and amazing

Right, in a moment of madness/annoyance at self at drinking 30 units this last week I have decided I am going to have a crack at DJ. May not be able to do it but I’ll try anyway.

Morning
mouse big hugs!

Had 1 small glass of red yesterday. Ds was very, very hard work yesterday so I felt that I needed a glass. It was only a small amount but I need to tackle that association.

My brand new weighing scales arrived yesterday. That can bloody well sit there in its box until Jan the 1 st. Not looking forward to that. Any magic cures for fatness?

I apologise for not doing name checks properly- love to all.

I think I'll name change in Jan too, I've had this name for years now. Might just pick a word from whatever book I have on the go unless I have a genius idea in the mean time.

How's everyone doing?

mouse!!!
DD is old enough for university???
Been keeping an eye on you over FB and know you have had a rough time. Good to see you back on here

Morning All.

Mouse dear heart! You always astound me with your ability to deal with so much. I know you would say you hadn't been, but you're still here, still battling. Remember how far you came in those early JWN days? You can do it again.

Made you can do DJ - you'll have a shiny new job to distract you - and though dealing with booze is never easy for any of us, Jan is marginally easier because you can hide behind all of the 'normals' doing it - fewer questions. And yes, I can forgive SweetDog anything (grotty hound)!

Guggs, why not stick with an art collection/gallery theme? Uffizi, Borghese, MOMA, Tate, Louvre?

I get the scales thing! I'm avoiding mine until 01/01 too. But tell you what, I'll hop on on New Years Day and share the horror!

Have a good day every one, 42, Dubh, Kate, Choco, Spanna, Elba, Joey . . .

Checking in and signing up for DJ 😘😘

There will be lots of new and old Babes doing DJ, so it's probably worth going over what to expect, getting the planning right helps.

I've already got in some interesting soft drinks - fentiman's rose lemonade was a revelation - if you like drinking turkish delight . Cans of san pellargrino blood orange and fevertree naturally light ginger beer. I also know I'll be a snack monster for a couple of days, so cheese puffs, mixed nuts, chocolate hobnobs are all on stand by!

morning
I had wine, I felt alright but then the insomnia.
I am afraid to sign up for DJ cos it feels like setting self up to fail.

42, you can't think like that. Sign up to delay your first drink for an hour. Or just do 01/01; or count the af ays you do - even if its 2 out of 5 (or what ever works for you and is even half a unit less than this time last week), lets all look for the win in Jan.

thanks sweet
since I got on this marvellous bus I've generally been doing 4 AF days per week in stead of none. But I do look forward to the drinking days.
you're right though I'm being defeatist!

4 instead of none is bloody amazing!
Sweet is right. Any reduction at all is progress,even if it is just a mouthful!

42 as Ma says, a-bloody-mazing. Give yourself a break. Going from 0 af days to 4 is brilliant (you liver thanks you). Don't lose sight of that.

DJ is not about failure, it's about doing a good thing for yourself with the support of lots of other people.

thanks ma
I've not done so many over xmas though
I've been trying very hard, just feel not sure I can keep it up for a whole month and the I'll feel a failure ....
Do I need a smack from barrie?

Absolutely!

No squid were harmed during this process.

Thank you all for your replies

Ma - I've decided to do dry January, bar two days. The birthday () and NYD to toast my Mum, and others that this year has taken from me We've lost so many family and friends this year, I really hope that 2017 is better than 2016 has turned out to be, but I'm a big believer in Karma.............

I'll be back later and might actually be in time to set up the new thread (as per tradition) for the NY!

I'll be back, I really will. I've missed you all so very much. Sorry not to be up to speed with you all, but that will change and I'd like to say a huge hello, Merry Christmas, and welcome to the best Bus you'll ever get on! xxx

Mouse xxx

I'm doing it too mouse but may relax over the shared birthday!
2017 is going to be my fucking year! Hear me roar!!!

Ha! You roar ma and thanks for the smack!!

Hideous interlude with H.
Separated but still meeting up.
Need to make it decisive.

Hi all...
Day two here now..
I'm very much an all or nothing girl.
Managed around 16 units in one day earlier this week! Shocking really.
Then I can happily go for three weeks with nothing ...
What that about ?
I've travelled with you all for yours .. Rarely posting but always reading.
This sounds bonkers but I feel I know some of you..
mouse guggs ma
And lots of you others...
Always some emotion triggers me off ! .
So new list of how to cope
Exercise.
Good food
Books
Reading here
Any more tips xx

Evening, on the wine snotty sobbing to the George Michael concert, bottle down, another will be opened fuck.
So sorry not to acknowledge names, I will soon promise. Nice to be able to offload here. Partner wants to do DJ too. Might have to talk to each other rather than snooze and share nibbles while glugging. I wish you all well GM looks so healthy in this concert, what a crying shame. Sorry for rambling

Ah go feel v sad about George too.

Evening all, mouse! it is lovely to see you! Missed you, and there's been no cheese. No cheese at all! I will do a Marks run in the morning and get some of their lovely cheeses, any requests m'dear? Anyone for Stilton? Bet those ceramicy pot ones are on sale.... (((((((cheesybosie))))))))))

joey fair proud o ye quine. Draw that line, stand firm. Totally understand that you want to make sure your dog is fine. Hopefully he will blossom now you've given him a bit of a rattle. You've let him know just how serious you are. Very proud. xxx

42 I reckon 4 days is nowt short of bloody good going myself. You are doing brilliantly, take DJ as it comes, just the one day at a time. xxx

sweet hahahahahahahaha! Are you raiding my fridge? I have the exact same things!!! I also have the Fever Tree tonic. That Rose lemonade is divine. xxx

guggs if you find the magic cure for the fatness please pm me. I have an isa. I can pay, not quite sure how much is in it, haven't been to the bank in an age but i would take out a beeeeeeg loan for the thinny magicness xxx

made are you looking forward to Monday? So chuffed for ye, you'll be grand. You handled that thing with the manager beautifully, well done for keeping the heid. You rose above and shone. xxx

To all of the kind, pet loving Babes who kept me buoyed when I was panicking, I am delighted to report the bairn's biopsy came back. Just infection. Overcome with happiness. This we can have a stab at fixing. She is off for her CT on Wednesday. I'm not quite sure what will happen after that but I'm sure they will do what's best for her. I'm not quite sure if they will do an fna of the surgical site first to see what's going on in there. Looking at her x-rays I don't know if it will be possible for revision surgery. Keeping her slim on no exercise is hard work, but she is still a v neat 22 kg. If I could just portion control me to that level..to be honest if it means me eating her kibble to get that kind of waspie waisted result? Tempted. Very, very tempted

kate I like a nice face mask as a distraction. Homemade with honey, yogurt, oatmeal. Sometime add mashed strawberries or blueberries. Forces me to lie or sit quiet for a bit and just breathe. Have let it lapse of late but planning to ramp it up for DJ. My friend also gives me her saddles and bridles to clean. I love the smell (before and after) and it keeps my hands very busy. I knit (badly) little dishcloths with cotton yarn. I can't do patterns and I can't turn corners so they are perfect for me. xxx

I am in my bedroom looking up at my lampshade. I have new arrivals. I did not think this was possible in December. Four teeny tiny spiderlings. After reading Aaaarrgghh Spider! I can't put them outside. Praying they are not some giant breed which will grow up and decide to eat me when I'm asleep.

Debating whether or not to have a teeny tiny bottle tomorrow just before the bells. A kind of last hurrah before I knuckle down.

go which concert? I watched the Symphonica one the other night and it was beautiful. He was beautiful. xxx

lala Are you back home yet? Are you keeping fine? xxx

choco how ye doing? You okay tonight? xxx

And spanna... I am still wearing my Tabard, weaving in a bit of the glittery thread from the Smock of Smug to tart it up a bit. I won't unravel ye, the Smock of Smug is like Doctor Who. Or a starfish. It'll regenerate or grow back. Honest. xxx

I am away to distract myself with some cheese on toast with some Lancashire sauce. And then play with my swanky new batphone before Jaws 2 comes on.

Laters taters.

Good to hear you so cheery and that the hairy bairn is well. I have decided to spend NY day out looking for sea glass to save me from the normal NY blues. Fecking hate this time of year!
Off for an eye test today and hopefully bifocals so I can stop peering at things and asking random strangers "What does this say?"

Hi dubh yeah I'm ok thanks had a early night last night was tired. Still trying to decide what to do tonight. Been invited out for tea. Then they will be drinks and kids to sort out will decide later. Hope everyone ok x