Dry 15

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For all those sober, or would be sober, warriors. KOKO (keep on keeping on) lovely people :)

bluevixen you are doing incredibly well! Keep it up.
Stressful day at work today but I coped well. Someone said 'you'll need a gin tonight' I thought... No thanks!
Things a bit bettr with DH. He is annoyed me by not finishing the bathroom which I'm itching to get finished finally. But in general he is being kinder and we're chatting more. I was doing yet more paperwork this evening and he put a nice hot meal in front of me which was much appreciated.
I'm enjoying reading girl on the train- half way through!

Wow Blue that's very impressive - well done you!

Well fucked up massively! Halfway through bottle 2. I'm a fucking dick

Well done, blue. You are doing really well. You should be proud of yourself prioritising you, and leaving when you needed to. That's the kind of thing that will get you through this. Right now, the most important thing is your sobriety. It's more important than jobs, relationships or even kids.

So focus on what you need to get through

tatoos I am fucking awesome

Am loving being sober, loving being single and going for lots of coffee through internet dating. Loving how much better my relationship with the kids is. Love that I spend my money and time on yoga, choir and theatre, in stead of booze.

I've lost 2 stones, and have started running again.

6 months in, in short, I'm very happy indeed.

My relationship need to change. I'm sad that he didn't want to change, and went straight to dumping me, but I'm hoping I can get a new relationship that isn't built around drinking.

Apologies for early morning over exited post!

half just seen your post. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Brush yourself down and start again. This morning write down how you are feeling - pretty dreadful if how I felt after 2 bottles of wine is anything to go by - and keep it to remind yourself. Get rid of and dregs and get rid of any other alcohol in the house. Just pour it away.

I can't remember whether you have said but do you have a partner or anyone else who knows what's going on ? I tried and tried to do it by myself but in the end I referred myself to my local drugs and alcohol service and it really helped. I think you would really benefit from some support IRL as well as here. For me the relief of telling someone was immense. I was so ashamed telling my husband I needed help but it was worth it.

Keep posting here as often as you need. If you want to PM me feel free. Hugs

Morning, well I don't feel too bad, just ashamed and guilty (my morning default setting!) thanks vxa2, I'll PM you

Thanks Finnish and Lou. Really tough just now as trying to get some proper help for my depression and anxiety - which are the reasons I pick up the wine. Currently have two agencies telling me the other one is where I should be going as they can't help. Making me feel even even more worthless than before. These agencies were both signposted by the Dr. In the meantime I'm sitting home alone, no children, no job and too ashamed to go out incase I bump into someone I know. I live in a small village. One minute I feel like fighting back and the next I feel like giving up. Nobody here to know if I'm drinking or not - just me. Seeing the Dr later but losing faith.

Half - Don't beat yourself up. If this was easy there would be no need for web support like this. X

Thanks Blu, I'm going to try again this evening. Hope things start picking up and you get the help you need.

Blue, people do say that longer term their depression and anxiety is helped by losing the booze. I know its hard to think along those lines when you are feeling like you are X

I've no wine in the house and desperately wanting to go to the shop. It doesn't help that I've been stuck in th house with DD all day. I'm not going though. I really want to do this.

You can do this half! We are all behind you. Keep posting and just focus on not drinking today.

Well I made it to DD's bedtime so I couldn't go out now even if I wanted to. I very nearly caved in a few times but distracted myself by reading AA website inbetween painting pictures of My Little Pony 😳 I'm feeling ok now, just a bit worried whether I'll be able to sleep ( I normally struggle if I've not had a drink) but I'm off work ATM so not a huge problem.

Well done half. We are all here for you. Keep going, take it one minute at a time if you need to and keep posting x

Off to bed with a hot chocolate now, hopefully I'll get some sleep. Hope your visit with the doctor went well Blue.

Go Half! Well done.

How are you Blue?

Morning ladies. Well done Half. How are you getting on blue - were you seeing your GP yesterday ?

Getting through yesterday was relatively easy as DD needed a lift early evening then she wanted to come home with me for a while. Had a straight forward chat about recent days. We both understood a bit more afterwards. She wants to stay over next week too. By the time I dropped her at ExPs it was 8.30pm and I couldn't be bothered to drive back into town to get wine. AA meeting this lunchtime then rush back to my safe haven. Thanks guys.

Morning all, I'm going to need all my sober strength over the next few days. My Dad passed away this morning. It was peaceful which is a blessing. I'm on my way to Scotland to be with my Mum and I probably won't be able to post but I wanted to affirm to myself here that I'm going to try and get through this sober. I have to.

I'm so sorry to hear that jojo, thinking of you and wishing you lots of strength over the next while

Well done blue and half.

Wha-hey so pleased to hear you are upbeat and happy finnish!! Suitably impressed about you joining the choir, I can't sing for toffee How is the dating going? The thought of sober dates fills me with terror

Gearing myself up for the weekend, shouldn't be too difficult as I am super skint although that's never stopped me before. Friend coming down on Saturday night which may be a bit more of a challenge as we usually share a bottle of wine or more, but cross that bridge tomorrow.

Very sorry to hear your sad news jojo.

Jojo so sorry to hear your news. Stay strong and know there are a lot of us thinking of you and virtually holding your hand.

Jojo so sorry to hear your news, big hugs

Another weekend is here ! Welcome to all the newcomers, keep busy and change your routines so you are doing something when wine O'clock comes calling. I found running up and down the stairs a few times helped...too breathless to drink and enough of a distraction I'm weird . I can highly recommend a walk in the park or woodlands, the leaves are fab at the moment. DH and I took our DD and her friend to a gig this week, we had a nice meal out and a wander around town, but didn't fancy visiting the pub and it was rather cold....DH had already had a beer and wanted to drive back cos it was a long way and I am too slow. So we sat in the car in the multi storey car park for an hour and a half, then had to queue for half an hour to get out ! Romantic eh ? That counts as a date in our house ! Day 85 here. DS is 18 this weekend....passed his driving test this week, all grown up. I feel old ! He doesn't want a party or any alcohol .....different generation ! Keep on keeping on.... can't wait to get to 100 days.

My idea of a day trip is a gp appointment patchwork so I feel ya on the romantic car park dates 85 days is fantastic, well done Hope your ds enjoys his birthday.

Friday night done. Fire on, snuggled up in a onesie (in my defence it was bought for me) with a movie and lots of junk food.

Have been reading a lot the last few days about mind/body connections when it comes to chronic pain. Spent some time tonight looking deeper into it. There were a lot of exercises to do about how you deal with stress, anger, anxiety and emotional abuse, criticism, neglect you give yourself. I found it all very sadly relatable.

I don't know if working through it will help with my pain, trying to keep an open mind as I'm willing to give anything a shot at this present moment in time. I do think it is entirely noncoincidental certain mindsets and resulting negative emotions I have and my drinking. Maybe it might help with that if not the pain? Found myself tearing up listening to an interview with a therapist and his client discussing how awfully he spoke to himself and accepted that level of self criticism as it's exactly like me. Considering counselling in the New Year once I get Christmas out of the way.

Sorry for ramble, hope everyone's Friday went well and you have a great night tomorrow whatever you have planned

Day 15 for me again after my blip. Feeling a bit tense as it's bonfire night! We usually have fireworks and drink! But we going to watch a display whilst chilli is cooking in slow cooker! (We will have that when we get back)so hope dp doesn't get in the mood for a drink. Any tips on how to make the night different away from booze?
Hope everyone is ok, sorry to hear the sad news.