Brave Babes Battle Bus - Holding our heads up like thistles

[MaryMungoAndMidgies]

I bit the bullet - Come on in, excuse the faint whiff of dog!

The last thread

elba please don't die. I would miss you massively!!!!

Just got out of the bath, don't know what is wrong with me but literally it is like tears on tap. I don't want to go anywhere or see anyone.

I don't really care anymore. Passed all that. Just want to eat Chinese in my onesie whilst watching a god awful film. With my stupid dog. And mad hair. Is that too much to ask?

Oh god I just read that back... elba - never ever ever. Just never ever. You understand?

lala are you ok?? Hope Mr lala is looking after you (that's not meant to sound dodgy ). I promise to let you know when I've made it through the run walk unscathed (I hope ).

venus thank you, it does make a lot of sense. I hope this is a transition; it feels different this time around for some reason. Which is scary and positive in equal measures.

Day 3 is nearly done, drinking becks blue shandy.

Hope everyone else is ok, sweet and wry where have you gone?? Hope your ok.

Evening all, if there's anyone still up.

venus the string of pearls analogy is a brilliant way of explaining. Thank you.

lala hope you're ok, give lala pup a snuggle.

elba you sound so positive! Hope you've enjoyed your evening.

I've done 2 days AF now, planning to do tomorrow too, one day at a time and all that.
I'm finding that my trigger time is from about 4.30 till about 7pm, I think it's because I normally start prepping food at about 5.30, and that usually involves a glass or 2 of wine, so from 4.30 I'm thinking "I can have a drink in an hour". Once that's over I'm fine. Mr Crochet was glugging it again tonight but I wasn't tempted at all.
Let's see how tomorrow goes, I don't think I've done more than 3 days AF for many years

Night

Crotchet you sound so positive too! Will join you tonight for another AF day.

Lala hope your evening went ok xx

I am never, ever up at this time on a Saturday unless I'm working! Mornings are a novelty! Evenings are another story....I don't seem to crave the taste of alcohol as such, it's more I just turn into an overgrown toddler at about 7pm, unable to cope with pretty much any kind of emotion. Last night nearly caved not because I fancied a drink but because I had a call from someone I didn't want to speak to.

Day 4 anyway...Only ever got this far once so everything after tomorrow is new territory. Lots of questions in my head about if/when I can drink again but have sort of planned my next week or so around hopefully not drinking and will go from there.

Anyway, hope everyone has a good weekend. ️Xxx

Elba absolutely hats off to you - brilliant work. Please don't think of days ahead - just get today done & then repeat process tomorrow. Soon you will feel the benefits of a few days AF & that in itself will be a real incentive. Enjoy your day!

Hungover. Desperately need to break this cycle

ma wish I had the answers. Maybe try af with me tonight??

summer thank you. You're right about not thinking too far ahead...get myself tied up in knots otherwise.

lala how are you doing?

Feels so weird that I would usually be hungover in bed now but ive done the parkrun (34 mins for 5k and ran it all...slower than I used to be but happy I can actually still run after nearly a year off!), been out for coffee, showered, washed hair and even put on make up. Don't know what to do with myself now...

Have a feeling I might crash and burn later, this is all weird and feels precarious. But last time I did 4 days af I only managed it by planning a binge (as a reward ) on day 5...this time I'm not.

I think I needed to make myself as ill/ drunk as possible on Tuesday...not sure if it was deliberate on some level. Can't quite put it into words so that probably doesn't make much sense.

Hope everyone's having a good weekend, sorry for multiple posts, just really helps trying to put this all into words. ️Xxx

Have bought Feverfew tonic, made ice cubes...will join you tonight Elba.

Afternoon all: sorry about my rantings last night obviously I was drunk had a bit of a sob to ML (better than mr Lala) after having a fall out with my mother, oh goody, now he thinks I am even more of a loon...

We just stayed in in the end, got takeaway and watched comedy. Despite having drunk far too much in the afternoon, didn't actually drink in the evening. Just moaned about the lack of wine completely forgetting that I had a half drunk bottle out in plain sight in my room that he discovered when he came upstairs, I need to stop this right now

Felt horrendous this morning and had to have many naps. Sweating, shaking etc. As I said, this needs to stop.

Did some washing and then obviously as soon as I put it out on the line, heavens opened. I could be a weather forecaster, literally I can tell you when I am putting a wash on and that's a 100% guarantee that it will rain.

Sorry not to name check, but need to dash out with dog in between showers.

Hope all is ok with everyone and elba, I am so so proud of you.

Now a slightly weepy, tired mess and have gone back to bed , trying to resist going to sleep but might have to have a nap. Forgot about the weird emotional lability that comes with more than a day or two in a row sober...

lala thank you xx hope your not getting soaked on your dog walk.

ma fab, sounds like you have a plan.

Got utterly soaked. Stupid 'summer' weather. All plans for bbq have been literally rained off.

Just been listening to some songs by Shane filan. How did I not know he used to be in west life??? shows age

elba you are doing great. Have a nap and then watch a funny film or something. I recommend jump street or similar. Channing
Tatum plus comedy, what's not to like???

Enjoy your nap elba, you deserve it after the run.

lala sorry your bbq is rained off, we're forecast rain here but not happened yet - very windy though, dog nearly had her ears blown off.

ma feverfew tonic and ice sounds good - enjoy.

I'm on the sparkling water, lime and ice again, starting to look like a lime though! Didn't sleep very well last night, hopefully will do better tonight. If I get through tonight AF, which I fully intend to do, it's a personal best. Apart from being knackered from lack of sleep, I feel pretty good; skin looks better, I feel more cheerful somehow.

Hope everyone has a good evening.

Wine witch is hovering. Have had 3 soft drinks already - one Aldi orange and cranberry which is lovely - and two N&Ts . ( Nowt and tonic). Am getting headachy and irritable and eyeing up some raspberry vodka in the depths of the freezer....God, it's frightening the grip this thing has. Have already had a bath to kill some time. D'argh, it's only 10 to 7!!![blush

Love the N&T ma!

Is there anything else you can do for distraction? (there's obviously a limit to how many baths a girl can have!)
Clean the cooker? Experiment with your hair/ make-up? Catch up with some paperwork?

I'm crocheting of course. Really really fancied a glass of wine when I was prepping tea, but managed resist with a cranberry and lemonade in a wine glass.

Cooker got its annual clean last weekend
Am rubbish at crafty stuff. I like jigsaws but have nowhere to put one other than the kitchen table which I need for meals. I have a new book which I can't wait to read (CJ Samson's Shardlake series which I have just discovered) but I associate relaxing and reading with a glass or wine, so trying to save it until bedtime.
Will surf MN and Facebook and try to keep occupied.

Keep going ma, it's shit though isn't it?! Also struggling tonight...using the 'scare the crap out of myself' method of searching for alcoholism stories on youtube, whilst drinking obscene amounts of ginger beer

Had a two hour sleep but can't wait for 9 so I can go back to bed and tonight is done with.

Well done crotchet!

The lack of sleep when AF is frustrating because my mind just keeps going round and round and I wake up in the morning feeling like boiled shite. Craving is easing. I'll make it. Telling myself it's just for tonight.

I actually find the sleep better now af; if anything I just seem to need insane amounts of it when not drinking.

I did it! AF tonight.
Hope crochet and Elba and everyone else made it too!

Been out for dinner. Now at the pub. Ran and hid in the toilets... Oh god.

Well done ma! Hope you sleep.

I have given up trying to stay awake and gone to bed (to be honest I've either on it or in it since about 3pm ). Day 5 tomorrow...please someone tell me I'll magically be all refreshed and able to stay awake for a whole day

lala my lovely what's wrong??

Well done ma and elba!
You ok lala?

Am still up but knackered, will go to bed soon. AF and know I'm ok tonight. No cravings now. Need to be aware of my 5pm ish trigger time. I'm really trying not to think any further ahead than the next day, the thought of never drinking again is quite scary.

Seems it's a really, really bad idea to drink 2 litres of sugar free ginger beer in one evening I'll spare you the details not a good night...

Morning elba, sorry you've had a bad night.....without knowing the details (or wanting to!) I wonder if the artificial sweeteners in SF drinks have upset you?
I slept well but feel very heavy headed this morning, maybe it's just an end of day 3 thing? But day 4 here I go!

Hope ma and lala and everyone else are good this morning