That Sunday Feeling!

[Hushabyemountain98]

Welcome to to my new thread. I hope that all my MN friends from Onwards and Upwards will join me and maybe a few new ones!xx

WTAFF if it helps you I will admit to having a very nice dream about my husband the other night and I woke up cuddling into him as close as I could get. I was so disappointed I'd woken up.

Does that help you at all or am I on the wrong track?

Husha, would you please consider getting a gardener in to do the grass?

Its not right that you're doing it with your heart condition.

xxxxx

Thank you WTAFF.
I am watching TV with a glass of wine too.
Sorry that you did something stupid that you regret with your ex.
Don't beat yourself up about it.
Relationships are so complex.
I have had so many dreams about my DH coming home and putting his arms around me and telling me everything will be alright. But that won't happen!
Oh no here come the tears again!
Enjoy your wine. I think I will have another one!
xx

Hello notonyur. It looks asthough I have just posted the same dream as you!
I have Atrial Fibrillation. My heart is okay it's my electrics that are a bit bonkers! It was stress that started it off yesterday not gardening.
Does your wee Granddaughter have a name yet?
xx

Hi Hush - definitely have another one. I think it's acceptable on a Saturday night! What are you watching?

Noton - yes, you are on the right lines. But I'm afraid, I basically made a fool of myself. He took full advantage of course but was not nice to me afterwards. I've been feeling really low all day. How could I lower myself like that? What on earth posessed me?

How could I lower myself like that? What on earth possessed me

Having a heart possessed you. It really is as simple as that. We were with these men a very long time and its takes a very long time to get them out of our system. Im sorry you've been left feeling so awful and the only thing you can do now is learn from it and try very hard to not let it happen again.

And why was he awful to you? Well perhaps there was a bit of self loathing going on there because he hated himself for still having feelings for you - and he took it out on you.

Letting go of the past can be scary and its no wonder that sometimes we have to do it in stops and starts.

Noton - he made it clear that it was just a means to an end for him and that it didn't mean anything.

Anyway, to quote one of favourite MNetters - onwards and upwards!

Good night all.

Hi WTAFF.
I am having another one.
I was watching Casualty.
Now the programme about Mohammad Ali is on.

Please don't be so hard on yourself.
Try not to let it happen again so he cannot treat you like that.
Sending lots of love xx

WTAFF please don't think about it anymore. Hold your head up high and look at him with disdain if you meet. You did nothing wrong, but the way he made you feel is disgraceful. He should be ashamed xxx

Hi ladies it's Sunday now but my feelings started on Friday this week , ex blew my ds out for ow on Friday night , he was so upset his comment was I am not 7 I won't forget he cancelled plans , I am 21 and will remember what shit decisions he keeps making as a dad ! Spent a day rewriting that essay in bed today !!! Sun was scorching , don't mention grass , surely it didn't grow that fast last summer , he left me in the March so I bet I didn't care about bloody grass !!!!
Tonight I went for a meal for my friends 50 th , my friends hubby took me and told me had seen ex in this restaurant with her the other week. Hence I was a nervous wreck all night. Couldn't get home fast enough my ds picked me up and I cried all the way home , can't go out for a meAl , can't go shopping locally , I hate him for shitting on his own door step😡😡😡
Sorry this is a rant , I am off to see Coldplay tomorrow night I may smile then . WTAFF no regrets Hun it's not worth it we are human not saints or was it dancers lol
Hush keep crying it's not a bad thing it s a release , my boiler broke to after he left ???? Weird next the toilet flooded , get ready for that one hush !!!!
Goodnight my besties ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Good night all xxx

Hi WTAFF.
I hope you managed to have a good nights sleep.
Today is another day and the sun is out here. I hope it is where you are?
Have a nice day. Try not to think about it anymore!
Onwards and Upwards! xx

Hi Kirk.
I am sorry that your son has been let down by his Dad.
He will not forget as he is an adult now.
Why are these men so selfish?

Glad you have rewritten your essay. Not exactly a conventional place to do it!
The grass could do with cutting again today. Still I suppose I did it on Wednesday!
Sorry that you got upset last night and couldn't relax and enjoy the evening because of the actions of your ex. They are just unbelievable!
I hope you enjoy Coldplay. I am sure they will make you smile!
Could do without anymore disasters,have only just settled my heart down!
I hope you manage to have a good Sunday!
Take care xx

Morning Hush, Kirk, Pisco, Noton and everyone else.

Thanks for your kind words last night- they helped a lot.

I hope you all have a great Sunday.

Morning all.
The sun isn't shining here yet but it is meant to be a lovely day.
Think I'm going to have to mow the lawn again. It's been just over a week since I did it last.
I've got a viewing today so will do it after that.
I'm sorry everyone is finding it hard at the moment. These people who always put their own wants/needs/happiness ahead of others will eventually pay the price (I hope).
I find I keep repeating to myself like a mantra I've done nothing wrong, nothing to be ashamed off. I can look at myself in the mirror without guilt! He can't. Eventually that must take a toll.

Hello all. I'm sitting outside drinking tea in my fleece! But the sun is trying to poke through. And I too have to mow the grass, again, but I always did that anyway so no change there.
Kirk I have that same feeling too. When I walk through town there are two or three restaurants that I always have to glance through the window as I'm walking past. I don't know what I'd actually do if I did see them. In my imagination I know what I'd do! Xxx

I don't know ThankGod about that one. We could be waiting forever for karma to bite them. I'm trying to work towards not giving a toss about them. It's bloody hard though. Especially when we have to forge a new life for ourselves. But maybe creating new lives might help with cultivating our indifference? Chin up, the pain does ease but I think the scar will always be there. I like your mantra, it's exactly right, you have done nothing to be ashamed of. Xxx

Hi girls its me - I just fancied a name change.

Nice name! I prefer the new shortened version x

I like your new name Tattieboggle xx

Hi ThankGod. Just a quick one as I have to start the bread off then I have dog grooming to do.
It is beautiful here weather wise.
I have been sitting here looking at things I shouldn't and then I was thinking about all the places I have been. Then that dredges up other feelings! I am my own worst enemy!
I hope the sun has come out for you?
Did the viewing go well? Did you get your grass cut?

I know that they are in the wrong but they are having a happy life. How is that fair?
Have a good day xx

The weather is fantastic here , and I woke up feeling ok after my rant to you all , thanks , I have changed a light bulb this morning stood on a chair and everything I have come a long way ladies lol !!! Just cleaned up not sure where that energy came from ??? Am I missing something re tattie boggle or am I dim ???

Well lawn mowed. Weeding done. Perhaps should have done it earlier when it was a bit cooler.
Viewing went ok. They haven't sold their property yet so aren't really in a position to move forward even if they like it. They know my next door neighbour so maybe that's a good sign.
Hush I wonder if they are really having such a happy life or if it's all smoke and mirrors? I don't think I could be really happy if my happiness had come at the cost of so much hurt and devastation. I think that they think they have to make it work, have to be happy else what was it all for. The cost has been so high they have to convince everyone including themselves it was worth it. (This is what I tell myself - it maybe just wishful thinking on my part)!
Anyway got to cook lunch now for my daughter who is continuously starving. Good luck with the dog grooming - I have to bribe mine with dog treats so he sits still for 30 seconds to give him a quick brush.

Hi Kirk,
Glad you have good weather and that you feel okay.
Well done for changing the light bulb.
Tattieboggle is notonyur!
You are not din!
Enjoy your day xx

Sorry dim x