I am really beginning to resent my life and don't know where to turn. Have 10 week old DS who was premature in special care and now has horrendous silent reflux and cmpi which we still battling to get on top of! I also have 4 yr old dd. I was never fussed about second child I find it hard to get pregnant and just got to stage if not happening going back on contraception when it happened. crap pregnancy early birth and horrendous clingy non sleeping baby. 4 yr old hates me won't listen to a word I say . I am fed up with having no money, doing our house up is on hold we don't have enough bedrooms and our extension is delayed, our kitchen is falling apart. Myself and DH dont sleep in same bed as we shift sleep with DS. My life seems to be trying to stay afloat with housework, cooking cleaning washing food shopping hospital appts. I can't seem to adjust to having a newborn baby again. I shower but can't wash my hair sometimes for days as don't have the time. My DH goes to work I know he works hard but then he doesn't do anything esle apart from his shift with DS. He manages football training etc I start my day between 3-30/4 as DS will only sleep upright. DH doesn't understand why I am so tired as I have 5 hours sleep before hand. We argue constantly. I can't see any end to it , my dd had reflux and can't believe I have a second child with it too. I want to run away and leave them all to it. How do I manège to wade through this crap and come out otherside?