Brave Babes Battle Bus is Racing Along.....

[venusandmars]

Our lovely mouseface usually starts these threads but I've just noticed that the previous one is almost full, so I'm facing technology and get the next one set up.

Anyone, absolutely anyone, who feels they have a problem with drink is welcome here. Whether you're trying to stop, or cut down a little, whether you've been sober for years, or even if you're too scared even to contemplate what is happening. If you think it will help you to post, or lurk, then please do.

There's often a lot of nonsense and banter, but lots of good sound advice.

And there is always lots of support and care and no judgement.

This is the link to the previous thread, if you want to read what's been going on so far The Previous Thread

And this is the link to JesusWhatNext 's original thread started 6 years ago The Original Thread

Evening, tis me, Mouse

I've been training for the Race For Life in Wrexham on June 5th. It's only 5K but still..... I managed just under and then just 6K the next training day I did.

Given just how broken I am, I thought that was pretty good going but my sponsorship so far is rubbish I so need to get my sponsorship money to a better figure so I'm going to test my tech skills and try to link my FB, Instagram, Twitter etc accounts to my Race For Life account.

Arrrrrggggggg!!!! If you could here my iPhone walking playlist you'd be just laughing your heads off at!

All late nineties and seventies disco and I plan to dress in the most neon of pink disco groovy shit attire that I can dig out from the charity shops around here!!!!

Being sober has absolutely changed me and my view of life. Life is for the living (as they say) and even with that whizzing around my mind, thinking of so many I've lost to Cancer in my adult life.... those who have been taken by cirrhosis of the or kidney failure....

I don't know but I've seen so much, too much suffering of late not to do something, too many memories not to be THE ONE WHO BOTHERED, WHO CARED.

So lovely Brave Babes if there's a race for life near you - GO FOR IT!!!

If someone as broken as me can do it, then DO IT!!! xxx

Night glorious babes xxx

Day 2 AF and I am NOT going to drink today! I have my whole day planned which includes cleaning my car and organising some paper work that needs badly done. It's trying to find a new routine in my
Life. For me it's a case of waking up, taking some
Pills.
Plodding through the day. Never actually getting anywhere, then ding dong it's nearly Tea time. Time for the shop and my wine. Then sit and drink in sheer misery. I don't see many friends anymore so I wouldn't know where to start. Please don't suggest AA. Ive been to a meet before and really it's totally not for me sorry. Just wondering what all you sober babes do with your time that seems to make you be so happy
To be sober. It's like you're over joyed that your sober and your not bored of your lives even a tiny wee bit. How on earth do I get there??? Xxx

I'm going to keep suggesting AA because not all meets are the same!!!

I went to one that was just for women. Another that was very much focussed on meditation and done by candlelight! One that was for partners too. One that was focussed on younger drinkers. I swear they are all different and any regular AAer will tell you that you have to try a few before you find the right one for you.

It works. Willpower alone would have failed me. Don't set yourself up to fail and get some help!

(NB the trouble with getting outside help is that it might work and you might actually give up drinking and the thought of "success" is so scary that you don't even try. I had these conversations with myself in my head for a long, long time.)

And we'll done on getting to day2! Just say out loud "I'm not drinking today." And soon it will be day3.

Please I honestly can't and wont be doing meetings. My town is so small and I do not want to risk bumping into anyone and driving for miles to the next town would take to long to get there and back with kids and no sitters and hubby always working. Id rather come here, and get support from you guys xxx

Yeah but the support here isn't working though is it?

Halle I have to agree with Marry, you need more support than this bus can offer you.

I will get that from my husband,best friend and children. Having them will see me through this. I feel really confident today. I don't want to discuss AA xx

Morning babes. Day 1 again for me. Keep on keeping on is my motto today

And having will power to stop drinking is as much use as having will power to stop diarrhoea.... Love that saying

The support here is amazing. If it weren't for you guys Id have drank yesterday. But I came here instead and didn't touch a drop and the same will apply for today xxx

Well done on not drinking yesterday Halle but can I ask did you substitute the alcohol with your benzos?

halle you did better than me yesterday, you can do it.

Halle if not AA then what? If you're still drinking/using, then it isn't working and you need to try Something Else.

Well give me a chance to beg up some AF days. Ive had a big scare and im goinf to try my best. I still had my prescribed meds yes but I will deal with one issue at a time xxx

Bag up*

Halle if you really canyl

Sorry? Xx

Halle sweetheart, you don't need "chances" from here or anywhere else! This problem is deeply rooted and has been going on a long time and based on results, current methods aren't keeping you clean and sober!

Day 2 n half and im about to tackle the rest of my washing. Ive already gutted ne sons room out and it's sparkling and it felt so good seeing the end result. I can't drink tonight anyway as taking son to boxing and going to stay and watch then bring him home, by time that's all done it's after 8 and I won't feel like a drink xxx

That's a good plan to start with.

Actually being on this page is helping me. I wasn't even tryin tk nah up AF daya before. If I felt like a drink Id just have one. Now im constantly aware and concious and thibking about my life properly and actually really WANT the power of sobriety. Xx

Are you still taking the benzo?

Sorry my phone froze . Meant to say if you really can't manage AA meetings can you get an online alcohol counsellor. I think SMART recovery do a course and The Bright Eyes website offers counselling sessions. Am at work atm but can post links later. Just suggestions xxx Hope you are feeling better today Hon

No more today. Had 2 this morning and 2 pain killers. I was genuinley on pain with my back and hips tho and that's been on going since pregnancy. But won't be taking anymore today. My husband is going to pick me up something herbal called Kalms sleep to see of it helps me xx