Brave Babes Battle Bus is Racing Along.....

[venusandmars]

Our lovely mouseface usually starts these threads but I've just noticed that the previous one is almost full, so I'm facing technology and get the next one set up.

Anyone, absolutely anyone, who feels they have a problem with drink is welcome here. Whether you're trying to stop, or cut down a little, whether you've been sober for years, or even if you're too scared even to contemplate what is happening. If you think it will help you to post, or lurk, then please do.

There's often a lot of nonsense and banter, but lots of good sound advice.

And there is always lots of support and care and no judgement.

This is the link to the previous thread, if you want to read what's been going on so far The Previous Thread

And this is the link to JesusWhatNext 's original thread started 6 years ago The Original Thread

Hi babes,

My post was only withdrawn in error. in case anyone thought I'd said something horrid xxx

I' m quite sure you would never say anything horrid baby, you're one of the kindest and wisest passengers on the bus.

What were Frog's posts about baby?

Aw april that was a lovely comment, great to see you my lovely xxx

faire think it was just a post on the wrong thread by mistake, different topic xxx

Hi there I wanted to come on to cheer you on with quitting. I also wanted to share my story that is still in process. My DH is an extremely heavy drinker. Due to this he's currently in intensive care with acute necrotising pancreatitis. He is seriously ill. Really seriously ill.

This is what drink can do.

Drinking can kill you.

If you ever have an urge to have a drink again please spare a thought for him and us and pour it down the sink.

I'm so sorry toxic hope he pulls through and gets the help he needs.

Glad to be sober today and every day xxx

Thank you. Congratulations on your sobriety. I hope I can come back on here and say dh is safe and sober but let's get him out of hospital first

Spanna, you are one amazing babe, 407 days & counting, blows my mind. Well done my love.

[waves to all other babes]

I'm doing ok but not as well as I'd like. Seem to manage AF Monday to Thursday but then the wheels come off at the weekend. I agree that when the sun comes out it somehow feels so much harder, but when I am drinking I'm not getting shitfaced and embarrassing, so I guess that's minor progress!

I had one beer before lunch today but then stuck to water with lunch, even though the DH was on . I'm doing the green dot thing, I had 17 AF days in April and determined to do better in May.

But most of all I've tried to stop beating myself up so much when I can't stick to my plan as I realize it was making me and everyone around me miserable. Be kind to yourselves lovely babes, you are all very special people.

Oh toxic, I hope he pulls through, I really do. Thank you (as much as that sounds awful) for reminding us how awful this fecking horrible disease (some people will disagree with me on this, and I am not sure how much I believe it is a disease, but once it starts and gets you in its grip, then it is like an illness) is. I wish you strength and hope

Hope yours husband gets well Toxic. Been in bed all day hungover. Messed up - AGAIN

Just checking in, hope everyone's doing okay and stayin strong xxx

Margie you are so right, there is no point in being so hard on ourselves. Change will come; it's a process and, as you say, it's slow and steady. All these little improvements add up. Well done for stopping today and switching to water. You'll feel great about that decision tomorrow

toxic thank you so much, your post is a much needed reminder for me personally that I need to get a hold on things. It must be heartbreaking to see your husband so poorly, alcohol really is a terrifying thing. To come and post on here was a really brave and selfless thing. I'm thinking of you and your husband

Those of us that are still drinking heavily are all playing Russian roulette with our health (I'm very much including myself in this). The liver in particular doesn't like to fire warning shots, it's very forgiving to a point, but serious damage can occur without a hint that anything is wrong. Likewise the pancreas. Not to mention the multitude of other diseases that can be caused or accelerated by drink. I've spent so many years with massive anxiety about what I've done/am doing to myself...that in itself makes me want to stop, but the fact I haven't (yet) just shows how powerful this bloody stuff is.

I'm really inspired though by those of you that have achieved sobriety, and have also started reading the DRY thread. The biggest thing that I've got from you all is how much you seem to cherish and protect your sobriety, and this seems more like a goal to me now. I used to dread someone telling me that I shouldn't drink ever again, and the will to moderate was mainly from the fear of never being able to drink again. But actually to me there won't be any point in drinking if (or when) I completely stop as one glass will never be enough, and it feels pointless to me as a bottle is still moderating.

On a lighter note, just back from a lovely long weekend with lovely people. Alcohol wise could of done better, but no embarrassing moments. Our second day/night was a complete fail units wise (Ive guessed my intake to be around three bottles of wine that day but could be a lot more), but I've eaten well and had some fab long walks and just generally feel much more relaxed. I am drinking tonight though, and I'd aimed to be AF. Have the GP in the morning so can't have much more, just going to have to start again tomorrow.

Sorry for the essay! Big hugs to all of you, I won't try and name check everyone for fear of missing someone but margie lovely to hear from you!

Just watched the queen's 90th bday thing: made me realise that I want all the horses in the world. Mine was good today, but I want more!!!

Puppy disgraced herself by shitting on the carpet. She has been sent to bed with a flea in her ear (and also a biscuit)

Had two glasses of wine, but going to bed now. Lots of love to you babes xx

Morning babes. As predicted my drinking on Thursday resulted in drinking every night until Sunday. I can't seem to stop once my 'weekend' drinking comences. And stupidly I hardly even enjoy it...

I am behind target for 17+ af days this month (to beat last month) so need a good run of af days now.

elba glad your weekend went well and you enjoyed yourself. The messages about the health implications really hit me - toxic I hope your dh makes a full recovery.

margie nice to hear from you, your post resonated on many levels.

halle hope you're ok and lala how's it going?

Day 1 today and today I won't be drinking.

Morning everyone

Morning Claret, Day 3 for me today and I will join you in not drinking .

Drank vodka for the first time in ages on Friday night and ate all round me on Saturday, not good for my weigh in tomorrow night .

GP smelt last nights alcohol on me this morning but didn't say much and I brushed it off so still haven't fully admitted everything. Just feel totally shit now though, it's only 11 but I actually feel like phoning in sick for tomorrow and getting totally obliterated. I won't as I'm never off work but it's so tempting. Had a lovely few days and felt positive but now just feeling so so low, got an increase in meds too which I don't want but I know it's probably necessary. Referral for CMHT was rejected so I have about three more weeks of counselling then I'm on my own and I don't know if I can cope. Sorry I know I sound pathetic, I've got so much to do today but I just want to curl up and cry. I'm sick of this now, I'm just crap at life and seem to have no coping skills. Sorry probably shouldn't put this on here but don't have anyone I can tell.

Aw Elba I feel you I got so shit faved on Saturday I can't remember from 10pm
Onwards. Apparently I didn't do anything wrong and just went to bed. Thank god. But it was a wee house party and my kids were there so I keep crying thinking inagine something had happened to them and I was to shit faced to notice. Ive cried so much since yesterday morning I actually have a small booster under my eye. I hate hate hate myself for it. Anyone normal would say right enough is enough y put your kids in danger yet im still here knowing deep down in my heart that I cannot Gurantee that won't Happen again! Now im ga ing all these awdul images thT one day one of my kids will die due to me drinking and that's what will either make me commit suicide or stop drinking. Id die if my kids got hurt. Everyone around me is tellin. Me to stop being so hard on myself and that my kids were fine and I could walk and talk fine I was just wasted and tired and they all being so nice to me but I can't move past it xxx

Halle and Elba, what is stopping you from stopping drinking altogether?

marry I don't know if I can cope without it, I think I'm literally drinking to forget things but it's not working anyway. I need some sort of crutch, even though I know it's not helping things.

My mood has crashed today big time, I literally haven't felt so low in ages and it's scaring me a bit. So stupid, I've had a good few days and now im just being a wimp. Get the impression GP doesn't know what to do with me and I don't blame her. Meant to be studying for a course I'm on this week but can't make myself do anything. I'm not drinking but the thought of having to sit with these feelings without an escape is the reason I can't face not drinking again.

So sorry for being so negative, I know I'm stuck in self pity mode again.

halle sorry your feeling crap too, sorry I'm not really much help but I'm thinking of you.

Have you considered AA, Elba?

Sorry you are feeling so down Elba, why not just take today as a mini-pamper day or even just a day to relax and unwind? Trying to force yourself to study for your course will only make you feel more resentful.