The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Springing Into Some Warmer Weather, Staying Sober Togeher

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Hi, tis me, Mouse

Welcome to the Bus. We're delighted to have you here :) Not because if you're new to the Babes you are here for help, but because we welcome every kind of drinker. And for all of the reasons life throws at you.

Those that do drink, those that don't drink and of course those who do but don't want to say just how much..............

We've all had our own personal Groundhog Day , some still are and don't want to remain trapped in the same cycle day in, day out, and some still are and want to be which is fine and why we're here.

To talk, to listen, to just be us, like you are YOU. You never know, one day you might just want to wake up on a different day? :) There's no judging here, no 'sides.

After all, something made you click on and read this :)

Come say hi! We even do & if you're super quick!!

And if you want to see what we got up to in the last thread, have a look RIGHT HERE

And this is where our adventure began, almost six years ago now!!

ALMOST SIX YEARS AGO...........

So GP phoned and now waiting for a haematology referral so not really any further on. Have asked for a copy of my bloods though so will go and get those later when I have actually managed to get myself dressed.

The weird thing is I've felt so low recently that I haven't cared if I'm hurting myself drinking, but now something may actually be wrong I feel more motivated to start looking after myself. Maybe I need a bit of a scare (hopefully not too much of a scare though!). Have coasted along with my head in the sand health wise for years but with a massive underlying anxiety as I know the risks I'm taking.

Starting to feel a bit more human after four cups of tea, hope you are too will and lala. What did you do with the dancing can in the end will??

Oh elba, it's scary isn't it? I recently had some tests done and they said my LFT showed higher rates than normal, but gp didn't question about my drinking. Scared the crap out of me, but obviously not enough... You don't think about that sort of thing when you open yet another bottle of wine, do you? It's another sort of hiding head in the sand thing. I mentioned I get massive anxiety after drinking, so if I have to go anywhere, it's far easier to have a glass or 3 of wine before hand to calm me so I don't have a panic attack - vicious cycle and all that. Anybody else just wish with all their heart that they were normal?????

Hi babes, lovely and busy on the bus this morning!

newmama having a new born is so hard, and hats off to you to be doing it alone. Never underestimate what a great job you are doing.

To all of you who are feeling a bit rubbish today, hugs and hopefully you can use that feeling to propel yourself through tonight. Just line-up lots of stuff to keep you occupied.

lala i am terrible at having that one huge glass of wine before i go out. Feels good at the time as it gets rid of the crippling anxiety but never ends well. I need to relearn going out in the evening without wine as a crutch....its stupid really as i go out in the day and i'm fine without a drink....go to work and I'm fine without a drink but then bam, suddenly after dark its seemingly impossible to do the same!

Already had one massive craving this morning but rode through it....going to have to strategically time my visit to the local shops to coincide with a strong 'won't drink' moment!

Hi isinde how are things going?

Feeling massively guilty now GP doing a referral and I haven't been honest about my drinking (potentially is relevant). She didn't ask and I didn't volunteer anything. Going to get my bloods and have a good look at anything potentially indicative of alcohol/liver involvement and do a bit of research. If I then write her a note and drop it in will that just make me look like a bit of a loon??? Scared to admit it but don't want to waste anyone's time by not putting them in the full picture

I think you're right to give them all the info, it might be like working with one arm tied otherwise. Will you know what to make of the results? I find googling things only leads to more worry.

Hello isinde.. How are you?

Hi elba please tell them about your drinking. Your GP won't think any differently they see it all too often. It's more the way it makes you feel about saying it out loud.
It may not be related it they need all the facts. Hugs x

Sat here in my car, mints at the ready. I don't want to go home tonight. DD is away, have got DSS staying. Which means I get to sleep on the sofa bed

Not getting on so well with DP. Not drinking makes that clearer.

Can't deal with it at the minute though, just need to focus on me. Which sounds selfish. It would be so easy just to slip back into the fog and not see things clearly.

But (deep breath) today I will not drink.

I agree with rarity, you should tell the gp says she, as rarity pointed out, they will have heard it hundreds of times before. If you do it, I'll do it (appointment later and already gearing myself up... Trying to ignore the half bottle of wine left over from last night...)

claret I am absolutely the same. Fine at work but as soon I have the day off or something to do in the evening, I can't possibly do it until I have had those glasses of wine... Why!!!!???

I am still feeling crappy, and my puppy has just been sick twice, she is very young and I am so worried. Pondering whether to call the vet...

Hi to everyone particularly those struggling .
Well it's my birthday today and I have been playing the tape to the end all day.
I won't have a drink before I leave the house tonight and arrive pissed at the restaurant
I will try to drink more like a lady and less like a trucker 😀
I so want to wake up tomorrow without regrets.
I am now approaching my mid fifties and I just don't want to end up a drunken old lush😟😟
elba you are doing so well by facing up to your demons
Will let you all know how I do fingers crossed

Happy birthday sober!!! I hope you have a very lovely, ladylike evening

😀😀

Hopefully not 😀😀

Ahahaha sober that did make me laugh! I end up like pic 2 pretty much Everytime I go out, have concluded it is safer to do it in my own home so no-one has to witness the aftermath.

Happy birthday!!!! (I realise I don't know you, but still...)

I have been so so so naughty and had a glass of wine. Docs appointment in less than an hour, he will be able to tell won't he? So cross with myself

Oh and... Some inspiration?!

Good luck with your GP

lala that's a good rule of thumb!

Thanks sober and will, if only I could remember that when under the influence...

Isinde lovely, how are you doing?

Hi everyone - I haven't been reading the thread for a while and I apologise, especially to marfisa who wrote some lovely, intelligent, thoughtful and supportive words in response to a post of mine a while back. I've been feeling so low. This afternoon I really, really, really need a reason not to drink. I am bored, lonely (no particular reason), sad - just depressed if I am honest. I haven't had a drink in nearly three months, and today I am in a "what the hell was the point of stopping in the first place?" frame of mind. Even though intellectually I know all of the reasons it was the right thing to do. Maybe it's just the weather getting me down today.... Anyway, I am thinking that a drink would make me feel a lot better right now.

Sorry you're feeling down putting, three months is amazing and immim awe of you! I think you know the answer to what you're thinking....having a drink won't make you feel better...infact it will do the complete opposite. I totally get the loneliness and boardem thing, that was me yesterday and I had a drink and I feel worse for it. Especially as I know if I'd have held out the urge would have passed.

Thank you Will. I know you are right. It's kind of you to take the time to remind me. I'm sorry you drank yesterday because you were bored and lonely. Obviously I completely understand! How is today going for you?

Hi genie we haven't chatted before.

I'm not having a good day either. I'm hiding in bed .

All I would say to you is what I've been thinking myself. If I had a drink then I will wake up tomorrow and be really annoyed because things would be no different. I would just have given myself another reason to feel down about myself!

I'm day 6, first weekend and it's not easy