The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Battling The Wicked Wine Witch, One Day At A Time!

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Hello, I'm mouse, one of the Babes who have been on this lovely, rickety bus called Gerald for some time now!

There's no judgy pants worn on this bus, nor hoking of bosoms!! It's filled with every day life, love and laundry. As simple as that. The rest falls in between.

We're a welcoming, supporting thread, filled with a mine of information from many years of experience, from those who have consumed alcohol day in, day out...hidden the 'habit', the lie, disguised our drinking with many an excuse. So perfected over the years or new to the guilt of drinking more than you think you should.....

Anyway, old or new, lurker or not, come and say hello to us if you feel the need. We'd love to meet you if we haven't already :)

Thank you for reading this, find a seat, hide green opal fruits if you find any, they're like gold dust around here! Aren't they ma!!

See you soon, I hope.

Mouse x

And, if you'd like to see where we all began, sit with a cup of tea/coffee and have a peek at this - the beginning

And our latest thread that will take you back to many others enjoy your read!

Mental addiction is harder. Plug in that amp girl! I don't wanna walk around with you? Sheila is? I wanna be sedated?

I seriously thought you were going to die when you were posting from your drink enough bed. You are alive! You are a cool mother fucker. You rock. Go play that axe !

Drink enough bed? Drunken bed! Use your anger. Scream and holler. Do . Not. Drink.

Why won't you take your pain relief pills special?

And, yes, get some carbs and some AF fluids down you. Bet Springsteen didn't play on an empty stomach!

Is anyone about?

I am craving a drink tonight. Never felt these 'cravings' before. It's like, I'm done for the day. I'm sat on the sofa and I just want a drink.

Can someone come along and just give my head a wobble?

I wanna be sedated! Rockaway beach....and the vintage Legend amp....next door will have to put up with it. It's not too early/late.
I love that guitar. Dh bought it for me. Olympic stripe in blue...it's my baby.
I used to play in little nothing punk bands...I kinda hide all that nowadays.
I could cry. I really must get rid of the insurance bottles.
I thought I was going to croak too. Oxy plus booze is a bad place to get. I was terrified of people knowing. I love being a ma and wife. I don't want to lose them.

I got far too into the last lot I was given. They say tramadol is safe, but, I'm worried ill like em....

Hi Winter you are in good company here because special is battling the ww too. Lets link arms and send her packing.

Same as I said above, have you eaten?

I know that for me, if my blood sugar levels drop then my body wants sugar. It's that simple. My brain will send me straight to a quick and easy source of sugar and my clever brain knows that wine is loaded with sugar so it sets of a big 'wine' beacon.

Now I know to ignore that and have something to eat instead, so that's the first thing to sort out.

Hi Winter and special - sorry to hear that you're both having cravings tonight. It must be a Monday issue - after quite a few weeks I had a bit of an urge to sneak out and buy wine on the way home this afternoon. Got through that part with gritted teeth - once home, took off every scrap of make-up, put hair in a scraggy bun, put on old pyjamas and am even debating slathering myself in fake tan. The real urge has gone but I'm vain enough that I won't go out like this .....
special I agree that if you can do without medication then great BUT better to take them (can your DH be that tramadol keeper?) than to put a foot on the slippery wine slope again ....

Hey winter...it sucks I know. I don't think Hershey's kisses have actual chocolate in them. I miss British chocolate! It's the immediate relief of drinking, it's socially acceptable, easy to get hold of, legal...and such a learnt behavior.

Dh has my xanax and my tramadol.
And apparently put water in one bottle, and tea colored liquid in the other, then returned them to their hiding spots. Smartass.

Ugh, Hershey's kisses!! They are some strange substance masquerading as chocolate. I used to like Dove bars though - I worked for many years on an island off the US coast.

Can you eat something satisfying and sweet, special? It might help. Toast with chocolate spread used to work for me.

You are doing fantastic miss punk rocker. Never hide your punk roots. Whack on a bit if MC5 and kick out those jams. Wow. Oxy and booze is a hell of a habit to kick. And you did the detox. You do not want to be doing that again. If you can't use the tramadol and Xanax as prescribed you should probably get something else instead. Are you going to meetings?

Sorry you are struggling too, lobster.
The kids were given a huge bag of kisses and reeces pieces. Being the discerning kids they are, they ate all the good stuff first.
There's ice cream and waffles.. I am enjoying losing the puffiness. I'm more blown up than L.A. woman era Jim Morrison...

Bet your kids think your punk roots are ace!

Eating is definitely not cheating at this stage special. Fill on up with food and music. And get an early night. Your body will still need rest.

Yes, the weight loss and fitness can come later special, you need to make staying sober your absolute priority, above everything else. You cannot help your dh and dcs if you start drinking again.

Have a sweet tea or coffee then get something to eat. It doesn't matter what, a bowl of soup will do for now, anything that will make you feel full. It will help to ease the craving.

Dh is giving out the xannies and tramadol carefully. He gave me a xanax and one tram. Ive made a pb sandwich, and put the coffee on.
Dd is learning how to play bass guitar, ds is a wanna be guitar hero. Dd actually has 'it'. But I don't recognize music nowadays. People don't seem to get together and play good old honest garage band shit. It's all youtube, and self promotion online. I keep encouraging them. Dd is showing alarming love for modern country. She must be rebelling, having been brought up with the clash etc! Ds wants to be his daddy, so it's all long hair and rock trivia...he can't really play, but he can pose! Which is half the battle, bless his heart.
The oxy was an unhappy accident, but after a few years occasionally binging my script with booze, it got me. I don't crave it like booze, or without booze. But yes, that was a nasty detox. I had never got out of control with anything before. Dh is straight edge. I just didn't cope with the ill health, losing our home, and facing up to possibly losing him. He let things go because he could see I was falling apart, and I hid it well for a while.
It's starting to ease off a bit.

You've been through a lot. Still are. But your family is still together s d you sound like a great little unit. They need you mum. Tomorrow is another day.

Thanks.

I have decided against the booze tonight. I know I'll regret it if I drink.

I've decided to make some dinner and settle infront of the soaps. That'll keep my mind off it. Then when 9pm comes I'm going to read and then bed.

I will be in and off here all evening special in between boring house moving bureaucracy and cooking some spicy noodles to assuage my flu. Can you get radio 6 out there? Great music for us old punkers.

Any other babes out there tonight ?

That bbc radio 6 digital. I am such a technophobe have no idea how to get it through Internet but bet you can!

winter well done babe.

Well done Winter and special ..... I hate soaps so I'm reading through Relationships, AIBU and a bit of Chat. It generally humbles me that so many people cope with much worse situations than I've been through without resorting to the bottle ... DD and I have hit the Greek yogurt and honey and we're now on the emergency chocolate stash.

Waves to pop .... spicy noodles sound very, very nice. How are you feeling?

I'm here! Debating whether to watched the documentary about Shaken Babies at 9 or whether that really will send me to the wine!

Sending lots of good thoughts to those battling cravings tonight xx