The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Battling The Wicked Wine Witch, One Day At A Time!

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Hello, I'm mouse, one of the Babes who have been on this lovely, rickety bus called Gerald for some time now!

There's no judgy pants worn on this bus, nor hoking of bosoms!! It's filled with every day life, love and laundry. As simple as that. The rest falls in between.

We're a welcoming, supporting thread, filled with a mine of information from many years of experience, from those who have consumed alcohol day in, day out...hidden the 'habit', the lie, disguised our drinking with many an excuse. So perfected over the years or new to the guilt of drinking more than you think you should.....

Anyway, old or new, lurker or not, come and say hello to us if you feel the need. We'd love to meet you if we haven't already :)

Thank you for reading this, find a seat, hide green opal fruits if you find any, they're like gold dust around here! Aren't they ma!!

See you soon, I hope.

Mouse x

And, if you'd like to see where we all began, sit with a cup of tea/coffee and have a peek at this - the beginning

And our latest thread that will take you back to many others enjoy your read!

I'm actually feeling human today! It's a struggle now dealing with judgemental people who want to get angry with me for being a drunk now that I'm clean, or ask me if I've had a fucking drink....I'm trying not to think about it! Punishing me now is no use. At least dh and the kids didn't appear to suffer. Dh actually said I was the cutest drunk mess he'd ever seen, and assured me the worst I did was bounce around playing ramones on the electric guitar, giving the kids late snacks, getting tearful at times, and being a little frisky. I'm not minimizing, but at least I'm not mean when I'm drunk...I love that man!
He's ok. His balance is improving with physio, his speech is better. Eating is difficult, but we are getting used to it. We are just steeling ourselves for the neurologist, and news about his tumor. Please God, don't let it be cancer. They won't rule out it having turned, until the biopsy.
So it's bad, benign or not he will need surgery, but, he's more himself, and that is wonderful. And he thinks I'm still cute.

Well Special you sound great. And your DH sounds lovely. I am glad there has been some progress.

I'm much better. The weight is falling off me, and I'm clear headed. I get cravings, but tell dh, or my sponsor, and we get thru it. I'm not pretending I don't want a drink, but I want to be sober more. I can't do life drunk.
Driving is scary, I didn't drive for ages, but I'm trying. No freeway driving yet.
Dd has been very cuddly, ds is warming back up. He relied a lot on dh when I was too drunk to do bedtimes etc, but I'm taking back the reins, and able to be there, and he clearly is thriving on it.
I'm trying to not feel too guilty, or ill just drink again, I guess, but...I'm trying..
We are going to renew our vows, can't find a dress for the life of me!

For all you've been through Special I have a little tear in my eye reading that! You inspire me. If you can get through this, I can do my bit too.

Bicycle, come on darling, join me on the wagon! You owe it to yourself to try. I'm ok now, physically. I don't recommend the accelerated detox, my head hasn't caught up with my body, and it was still hell. But you can do it, if I can. Big hug. Xx it's going to be ok, sweetie.
Sorry I was quiet a while, i was in really bad shape. Xx

Just to say babyj you've been sober since October ?! That is fantastic, well done you!

ma sorry to hear about your work, I hope everything gets sorted soon

Since we're sharing dog photos...

Hi all.

Hope you've all had a good weekend.

I've been trying to catch up and want to say hello to any newcomers.

I've had a good weekend. I've had a couple of drinks tonight though. Feeling more in control though, feel I can stop now and have a soft drink. It's hard though, but I need to keep in control.

More pet photos please!

Day 2 with no drink for me, so pleased. Some really inspirational stories here which helps me.

cunning well done on day 2!

Every day is a big achievement in my book :)

Well done cunning!

Beautiful dog joey

You're doing brilliantly special, try to ignore the negative influences

April welcome back lovely
Special you go girl so glad DH is improving. Fingers crossed with tumour.
Cunning well done babe. Day 3 tomorrow, one day at a time, this time next week, it will be a week, just think how satisfying that feeling will be
Joey your dog is so beautiful. Good to see you
Ma
Winter stick to 2 if you can, enjoy your nice hydrating soft drink x
Lobster I laughed hard at your washing machine story

Worked today visiting different old folk, went to a tea dance with a 92 year old lady, so lovely seeing these old folk twirling around, grins all over their faces, very heart warming
Sleep well lovely Brave Babes x

Thanks spanna. Am taking a day off which I really shouldn't do under the current work pressures but dd1 needs me today. She's struggling a lot with life just now and mental health, so we are having a day out together - first time this has happened in years so a bit apprehensive ( of my own daughter ).
We are going to LochLomond to try and reconnect a bit. Lovely day here. Will still have my phone though for call re job....

ma have a good time with your DD lochlomond sounds beautiful and inspiring compared to SE London ! I'm currently bonding with DD1 as we both at home sick today.

special I second that name change and am behind you all the way you ROCK. Take it easy on yourself and I have all my fingers crossed for your DH and a positive treatment pathway ahead.

Waves to all other babes.

Ended up having 3 drinks then swapped to diet cokes. Feeling good for it. Feel a little more in control.

Waves to everyone

Well done winter!

Hope you have a good day with DD, ma, it really is a glorious day.

pop, what a rubbish time to be ill with a house move looming. Hope you both are better soon.

spanna, how lovely to see you. Almost a year! Wow.

made, how are you doing?

I'm on Day 10, and was doing a better job of moderating when I wasn't AF. I do think AF, or mostly AF, is the way for me though. Moderation consumes so much mental energy and stress and I think about booze much more.

My DD is napping just now so I'm catching up on chores. Managed to burn my finger because I wasn't paying attention. I always feel like I have to justify sober injuries and assure everyone that I was, in fact, sober. I'm sure it doesn't occur to normal people that I wouldn't have been!

Hope the sun is shining for you all.

Afternoon all wrote a long post the. Lost it bah! Avoided lunchtime pub "working" so proud of myself lovely sunny day made better as no brain fog am benefitting from all the wisdom and amazed at how much strength folk have trying to to deal with demon drink and many many other life stresses

Fucking cunting hell I want a damn drink.
I am finally well, and it's all I can think about!

special it will pass. What can you do to distract yourself? Come and chat here if you like.

special time for some sweets / chocolate/ mending / baking / Ramones air guitar playing whatever distracts you for 30 minutes then another 30 minutes. Read back your posts when you were drinking. They were harrowing. We are with you. You do not want to go through rapid detox hell again. The cravings will pass. The consequences of drinking will go on for much longer. Have one of these

I actually cannot cannot cope with feeling like this forever. I've got two hidden bottles, which I'm trying to decide whether or not to leave there, or tell dh to go get rid of them.
I'd never ever think about rapid detox again. Hellish.
I won't drink, I can't do it to the kids and dh. But man has this thing got its claws in me.

Good. Decision made for today. Get rid of the bottles or you will drink them. Seriously read those posts. You were fucked. Now you have hope. Take it with both hands. It's not easy but it is at least possible. It's early days. It will be hard for a while. But you can do this.

I've a 1969 mustang....I'm not a bad guitarist really, I can at least keep up with the ramones....I might go plug in the amp and try distract myself. A bit of pj harvey might work...
Everything, everything is making me think of drinking. I thought I'd have it licked once I got rid of the physical addiction....

It won't be forever special, I promise. The feeling is strong but it will go. Especially if you don't give it any head space.

First things first, have you eaten?

I haven't eaten. I'd better tell dh to get rid of the bottles. Ill write it down and go hide in the bathroom a while.
I was fucked up. My head is saying, oh just a drink, no pain pills, and you will feel so much better. It's sabotaging me! I've got anxiety meds which dh has hold of. No one trusts me with anything right now.